farhana says...

Hey, Im in relationship too :D

2012-02-03T12:29:00.000+08:00

Mom: Do you have a boyfriend? When are you going to have one?

Me: I already have one, mom.

Mom: Oh really?! Why you never tell me before? How he is like? :D

Me: He is sooo sweet. He is always by my side and he loves me so much! He listens to me and he never lets me down. He is so protective, mom. And know what, he follows me everywhere so you don't have to worry. ;3

Mom: Oh, everywhere?

Me: Yeah, to the school, to the mall, to the bookstore, even to the bedroom.

Mom: Oh that’s great. Wait, what?! *faint

Me: And he is there too when im taking my bath. :3

Mom: djfitqe*^&a!! mp;%&m*&; dfqwe 7^$^%#!

Me: Chill mom, chill. You know who he is? He is Allah. And having Him is more than enough for me. :’)

Mom: . . . . . *tangan di dada mata ke atas*

because He never does. :')

Credit

footNOTE: Scene above has not happened, yet. But now you know what’s on my mind if she does one day ;D

心さんへ

2012-01-30T12:21:00.002+08:00

何でなんだろう。
心さん。
もやもやしてるのは、なぜかな。

人は時につれて、少しずつ変えてくるのは当然なことじゃない？
それは神様のことじゃない？
自分も今まで何回も変えてきたのだから、他人もそのようになったら、それは普通じゃん！

心さん、あまり考えないでね。
それは誰のせいか、自分で決めることじゃないから。
神様にしか任せないから。

でも、
もやもやは、
いつも心のどこかに残ってる。

嘆かないで、
疲れていても、嘆かないで。

お願いだから。

the road diverged, and i took the one less taken

2012-01-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

And the next thing I know I'm in the garden of flowers and sunshine. Of mists and rainbows. Of butterflies and bunnies.
And I know I had finally found the true happiness. The real peace. The pure bliss.
Nothing could replace that. Ever.

This is the thing I've been wanting to tell. The real biggest discovery in my life so far.
I've never thought I would find this, and I could fall in love with this thing.
Because looking back at how I was before, I was really far from doing this kind of job.
I knew long before that this thing exists. But never actually take notice of what it is really about. Or why does it have to exist at all.

But when Im really in the 'thing', I realized I've been lost all the way.
I've been lying to myself of things so obvious.
I've been avoiding myself from exposing the truth.
I've been hiding too much out of fear.
Of commitments, of expectations and of losing things I loved doing.

Oh wait wait. What is this Farhana? What are you trying to point out, actually? -.-'

Well, let me be frank.
I've actually found a circle. :)

A circle.

Not the ordinary circle of friends. Or circle of clique. Or even dark eyes circle. -.-'
It's the circle that builds and grows. Circle that triggers and transforms. Circle that open your eyes and soften you hearts.

I used to call this ridiculous. I used to call this nonsense. And even conservative.
But when this thing could change your mindset drastically, you know its powerful.
There's something inside it that make it alive. And it IS alive.

When your soul is alive, you get a clear picture of your purpose of existence.
You know your role and you know where it could bring you.
You feel lighter knowing you are not alone. You feel more spirited knowing as you go, you are tagging along something so pure and big. You dream is bigger and your sight is broader.

And you know your heart is well protected.

What else could I say to express how big this circle means to me?

Sorry I left you hanging. Hehe.

Its Usrah. Or tarbiyyah. :)
Both brings the same concept. Of building you towards a better you. And aiming nothing but to bring the beauty of Islam back to where it should be. :)

I found this usrah when I got into IBT. I started with zero knowledge, and slowly my heart opened up. Alhamdulillah. And since then I tell myself this is what I'll be working out for. This is what my life is all about. This is why I exist and still breathing on earth.

Knowing Allah is there for you all the time is the most precious gift ever. You depends on nothing but Him. You thank nobody but Him. You cry for nothing else but Him.

And even when hardship comes your way, you know you have Him. You know that even the hardship comes from Him, and there is a reason behind that. And you know that He did that because He loves you and wants you to be strong.

Having a so mighty power to cling on every single second, good or bad, happy or sad, is a blessing more than enough to keep my faith on Him.

But for me to stick with usrah, there's a lot more reason other than that. It will take a real long post just for it. And it will probably never end. Trust me. xD

Because the sweetness of living within the way of life I've just found is beyond words. :')

And I really thank Allah for letting me have the opportunity to know and meet usrah, at the age of 19 where there's still plenty time to think, decide and change. I really thank Allah for having me in IBT, as if I was at other places, I would probably not having the chance to even know this at all. I really thank Allah for accepting me and guiding me, throughout all the suffers and difficulty I faced.

It feels good when you whine and sob and know God is there for you, to hear you and will direct you out of the gloom, somehow. And there would be no room for blame, towards Allah or your fate, when you devote all your life and every single thing on Him.

And all your works are for nothing but Him. :')

But I know I'm still bertatih. I'm still so naive. I'm still so unripe. I'm a freshie and there's still too much to learn.
But Im striving, and I'm working towards it. InsyaAllah.♥

I believe Allah helps those helping towards Him. :)

“Islam telah bermula dengan dagang dan ia akan kembali dagang, maka berbahagialah mereka bersama Islam di waktu ia dagang.”
- Hadith Riwayat Muslim

Yeah, Islam has become something so bizarre and odd nowadays. Even the name Islam had been stained and contaminated by so many speculations people not even sure about. But try knowing the pure and genuine Islam, the one brought by Rasulullah and maybe you will fall in love too like how I did. ;)

You choose your life. :)
And Im glad Im in the group that brings the bizarre thing. xD

Well, pray the best for me. May Allah bless. ♥

the end of the chapter

2012-01-25T01:39:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps!

Last post was during hari raya. And that was, hmm, 4 months back?

Im sorry I neglected you, bloggie. But trust me, if I were to write during that period you would probably see no more than some lists of depressing heart pour posts, knowing how tense I could be and how emo my posts are when exam comes near. -.-‘

So are you not happy I choose to write now, when everything’s settled and im so carefree? xD

Yes. Everything’s settled.
And there’s nothing else I could say to express my gratitude to God.

Alhamdulillah. Only You I could rely upon. :')

Last four months had been very hectic (read: super duper giler hectic). Now let me tell you why.

The exam fever.

Fifth and last periodical exam [定期試験]. Japanese Language Proficiency Test N1 - JLPT [日本語能力試験]. The Examination for Japanese University Admission for International Students - EJU [日本留学試験]. Finalization Exam for JPA students [修了試験].

All squeezed into 2 months or so. The tense was needless to say. IT WAS A REAL PAINFUL MOMENT. But lucky me I have him to keep me company. ♥ :)

See the happy faces? :D
Obviously not during the exam. Ini time register je. No wonder lah kan. -.-'

Happy faces again! ;D
Because exam was over and we managed to hentam all! Oh yeah -.-'

-no much pics.-
Its exam period, u see. Mana ada mood, and kalau ada pun wajah sangat lah bengis tahap singa sembelit.
Cheh.

Its holi-holi-day!

In between exams yang super duper pack tu ada je holiday sebenarnya. :) 1 or 2 weeks every after one exam lebih kurang. And yeah I know it should be my chance to study for the coming exam lah kan, tapi hehehehe.

Tadaaaa :D

Eagle Land - Langkawi!

Rumah Cik Puan Mahsuri.

Spot the niji (虹) / rainbow! :D

The dream is sky high. And we need your help to flap our wings. ;)

Cat City - Kuching!

Indonesian border market

Taman Kebudayaan Gunung Santubung.

Congratulation! Moga berkekalan sampai syurga. InsyaAllah~ ♥ :)

The Heritage Town - Taiping!

Shahira and her new-found bestie. Meet the orangutan!　
そっくりじゃん~ hehe

The End of the Beginning

So now the exam is over! ;D
Among other things we did before we graduate;

Created nonsense haigu 俳句 (Japanese poem)
Mine was the top far right. Translate: the clouds on the sky, so soft, so sheepish.
LOL that was just so bare and childish. T.T

Beautifully wrote our kanji of the new year 2012 in calligraphy! Its so beautiful I wanna cry. :')
Note; mine was on the very top, second from left, and it means そら (sky) okay, not からっぽ (empty).
Kanji could really make so much confusion -.-'

Acted like senseis and the blackboard was ours! We are creative and we know it. :')

We are flying without wings~ ♪♫
-rooftop of IBT- ;)

Last bus ride to IBT. :'(

Last class with Okumiya Sensei.
Notice the blackboard? He was actually learning bahasa Melayu with us on our last lesson. Awwhh~ xD

EJU WAS OVER. AND SO DID IBT! The sweats and tears of 21 months finally meet an end. Oh thank God. Alhamdulillah.

And it ended with tears too. :’)

f26a - class of 2010-2011! ♥

Housemates of a42! ♥

Lambang kasih sayang. Hehe :')

Its a legacy to organise a party every after graduation, aint it? :D

Okumoto sensei ♥

Homemade bihun goreng. Made with much love and affection. ;)

Awh heaveeen.

*salivate*

Kopek Durian Contest for sensei! :D

And the winner goes to....
Kimura Sensei! Oh yeah xD

西井先生、内村先生、村中先生、近藤先生、奥本先生、八巻先生、清宮先生、他の先生方。♥
来て下さってありがとうございました！(^o^)/
２１か月も大変お世話になりました！

Love IBT forever ♥

The dupdapdupdap Part.

The JPA held a meeting to decide whether we, the scholars, get to fly to Japan or will be kicked out. *ouch*
And the result was announced last friday. その恐ろしいといえば。。。 x(

When the result was going to be announced, everyone was shaking. Yes, shaking, literally. Well, it was pouring real hard outside and half of us were already wet from head to toe anyway, from walking in the rain all the way from Mid Valley to IBT. -.-' So I guess its not an exaggeration. ;p
But our hearts never stop praying. Hands gripping. The air felt thin and I swear I was gasping for air. Its the result that decides our future. The result that tells that all our tears and effort for the last 21 months worth something in the end. The result we've been striving hard and stretching out for. The final, ultimate result.

Yeah ok I admit life does not actually ends there. Even if I didn't get to go to Japan I've already prepared myself to accept it wholeheartedly, and believe God knows best. There must be other local unis to apply for, and other courses to dive in. And why, the road of Jihad could be in any form and any direction as long as it aims for the right thing, right? :)

But easier said than done. To gain that strength would require super strong faith. And to allow others to accept the same way is another thing. It's never easy. And a chance like this doesn't easily roll down your lifepath. What about the sacrifices and hardwork? The hopes and expectations?

So yeah, I could say I really put so much hope on this. VERY much.

And.

And Alhamdulillah. The whole batch was granted with a chance to study abroad in Japan. Officially.
Hoorraayh! :D
Now its just time to wait which uni will accept us. That will be in February :)

Before/After

The paranoid feeling vs. the over the moon feeling. xD

Alhamdulillah. Only Your Will could grant. :')

So we crazed and skipped and jumped around looking for the next silly things to do! What else could you expect from girls freshly broke from the jail of IBT? ;p

We found a red bear.

Hugged a white bear.

And made a lifetime personal challenge to perform in public. Woohoo!
But oh, don't be mistaken. I was only the photographer LOL.

The two main characters, and two penyibuk one. xD

And we burabura ALOT.

This is a form of burabura too. But we call this rehlah. And I would really love doing this again! ♥ xD

Oh my. My back aches already.
So I guess I will have to stop now.
Bye bloggie. Don't miss me and please behave.
For this 2 months I will try to update and not let you collect dusts too much xD

AsSalam ♥

PS: There are things I really want to tell. And its about a real big leap in my life. But maybe next post. ;p

kesedaran terserlah

2011-09-04T13:38:00.001+08:00

Ramadhan tahun ni saya suka. Tak hectic tapi tak kosong. Ala-ala kuih tat nenas gitu. Simple je, tapi isi dia manis. Tak macam kuih keria. Manis tapi kosong di tengah. Haha perumpamaan yang tak kena langsung kthxbye.

Syawal tahun ni pun saya suka. Hectic dan penuh gitu. Banyak suspends banyak surprises. Boleh kata macam kuih Almond London. Sedap memang sedap tapi kadang-kadang sakit gigi gigit kacang.

Cuma part tengahtengah antara Ramadhan dan Syawal tu ada benda tak jangka. Dah plan nak balik Ahad petang, then tangguh lepas buka, then lepas tarawih, then lepas football match baru nak bertolak. Masa ManU dah strike 4-1(eh eh terbold ;p) abah & along dah senyum sampai telinga, maka bolehlah semua bertolak dengan tenang dan ceria, termasuk saya walaupun tak watch pun match tu tapi nak join sengih jugak hikhik. Time bertolak pukul 1 a.m gitu, kereta macam tak betul padahal along dah hantar service yang sampai kena bayar 4figures okay, tapi jalan macam bawak lori 10 tayar. =.=' Sekali bila sampai Senawang, da start bau hangit so abah stop dekat perhentian tapi tak jumpa apa-apa yang pelik pada Mr.Estima, so teruskan lah jalan. Tak lama lepas tu, Mr.Estima dah jadi kereta kuda sakit. Semua orang dah cuak macam first time naik kereta kuda, terhenjut-henjut atas jalan. Bayangkanlah tengah speed sederhana laju tengah malam kat lane tengah highway yang banyak giler kereta lain speed, tiba-tiba kereta macam tak makan minyak and kena slow-slow ke tepi. Kesian abah, cuak muka abah. Hujan lak tu. Bau hangit lagi. Fuh macam Fast & Furious pun ada (takde kena mengena). Lalu kami terpaksa berhenti di tepi jalan kilometer 243.6 menghala Johor. Number ni tak tipu ye sebab tanda km tu betulbetul depan kereta masa stop. -.-'

Memandangkan abah dah cuak, mak apatah lagi, dan Shahira pula nyenyak dibuai mimpi maka saya and along berlagak hero turun tengah malam redah hujan nak cari rescue. Sakit hati sikit bila call Telekom untuk dapatkan number Plus Highway sebab robot yang jawab tu punyelah lembab. 'Terima kasih kerana menggunakan talian khidmat Telekom. Talian ini akan dicaj bla bla bla dan perbualan ini mungkin akan direkod bla bla bla bla bla untuk meningkatkan bla bla bla.' Macam, come on, we are in hurry and we need help lah. Takpayah bebel panjang bole? -.-'

Nasib baik tak payah tunggu lama sangat sebab lori tolak sampai dalam half hour lepas tu. And Mr.Tow Truck pun sangatlah happening dengan lampu bagai. Taulah nak raya. Tak semena-mena festive mood tu datang balik kat kitorang. :')

Mr.Tow Truck yang kacak and happening. :')

So malam tu terpaksa pergi Seremban and menumpang di sana. Nasib baik kawan abah pakcik Lingam ada and dengan baik hatinya pandu tengah malam tu ke highway and ambil kitorang ke Seremban sebab kereta kena tarik. Then teman abah lagi patah balik Kajang untuk ambil kereta lain. Sobsobs tq pakcik. Jasamu dikenang. :')

Syukur Alhamdulillah takde pape jadi masa tu. Haa baru tahu apa rasa duduk tepi highway dalam hujan dan macam nak terpelanting je bila lori speed kat sebelah. Masa tu tawakal je lah menjadi teman. Macam mana pun kita cuma merancang, Allah yang tentukan, kan? ;) And nasib baik juga lepas tu dapat tau ManU menang 8-2 (ops terbold lagi xD) maka perjalanan balik makinlah terasa happy. Hikhik. :D

So apa yang surprise sangat raya ni?

First Raya;
Yang paling bahagia: makan banyak giler. Setiap rumah ketupat and ayam sambal were a must.
Yang paling surprise: dapat tahu cuti seminggu je. Bukan dua minggu ye. Entah macam mana selama ini ingat cuti 2 minggu tapi rupanya selama tu jugalah saya duduk dalam angan-angan rupanya. So shukudai tak siap pape masa tu like wth. Berkecai harapan kot. Macam taknak caya je cuti seminggu. -.-'

Second Raya;
Yang paling bahagia: beraya jauh sampai Mersing and sempat jumpa ramai saudara.
Yang paling surprise: sakit perut sebab first raya dah makan over-over. Tak pernah dalam hidup sakit perut sebab makan banyak sangat kot. Kan dah padan muka, second day terus tak boleh makan langsung. Tragic gile. -.-'

Third Raya;
Yang paling bahagia: duit raya bertambah. $.$
Yang paling surprise: balik Kajang and shukudai yang bertimbun mula kelihatan dan menjadi nightmare. Baru sedar banyak rupanya shukudai. Untuk daftar Japanese Language Proficiency Test (JLPT) lagi. Untuk essay 希望 lagi. Untuk 定期試験 lagi. 新しい言葉　lagi. Semua gara-gara ingat cuti 2 minggu. Waaaa~ -.-'

Lucky thing dapat jumpe mamat comel di atas sebelum balik. Sejuk sikit hati yang panas. :'> Macam nak culik bawak IBT. ♥

Ok nak pergi marathon shukudai.
*sprint ke arah timbunan shukudai*

footNOTE: tak sempat pergi open house rumah Umairah sebab ingat semalam nak balik IBT, tapi sampai la ni terceruk kat rumah lagi rupanya. Hwaa kalau tahu semalam dah pergi rumah Umairah. *nangis gulingguling*

triple wishes

2011-08-28T20:56:00.005+08:00

You know you've got something way more important to do.

Like washing the dishes, clearing the dinner, packing for 4 days raya holiday, or just taking a bath.

But you just plain lazy you sit in front of your laptop, stare at the Facebook homepage, abuse the home button, listen to songs you usually don't listen, Google random search, stalk random people, read random article, see random pictures, explore random websites, ~~adore random guys~~ and repeat the same things till you hurt your butt.

And somehow you enjoy doing it, as long as it's not something you GOTTA do.
That's exactly what i'm doing. Wee~ ;p

But only by imagining living this routine for the next 2 weeks holiday already gives me nausea.

I think i need a self-help psychologist. -.-'

宿題は普通のように鞄にも入れられないほどおおすぎるんだ。Fifth semester exam (定期試験）will be in September. Wait, isn't that next month? *shivers*

Lucky thing i only have the holiday homework without the daily も one; I managed to finish it up during our stay in IBT until 10pm last Friday.YAY! x)

We were actually warned 2 weeks earlier to pass up all homeworks until OK by 26th August. But the whole class was kept for detention class after school that day because it seems that nobody managed to complete it all by 6pm. Imagine how much homeworks we had. -.-' But it turned out not so bad afterall. We had our first and last iftar this year, and we all shared the shukudai-sprint mood that night with the senseis. It really felt like a family and now Im actually hoping for another detention class next time, hehe. :')

Anyway, the only-for-holiday shukudais are not exactly that relieving. 4 thick paperworks and researches to be done. Revision for Teiki and Eju and Shuuryou shiken. Dilemma between doing the do's and give up on my crave for food and raya and internet, or the opposite things. Lets gambare and make sure the latter don't happen this time. :)

I pray for a safe balik kampung/holiday journey for all.
Maaf zahir and please accept my apology from the deepest corner of my heart *cheewah* for any of my wrongdoings, intentionally or not.
Happy Holiday. Happy Merdeka. Happy Syawal. ♥

footNOTE: I know im forgetful. I wished all my BFFs' birthdays late. Im so ヒドイ　i know. So sorry girls. I'll try better next year. :'(

lets come CLEAN

2011-07-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

Hey blog yang berhabuk. Lama tak jenguk. Bukan taknak, bukan tak suke. Tapi sebab takde masa, and takde internet. Tapi bagus juga, atleast boleh lah concentrate study. Eventho study pun tak macam study, haha. Ok ada nada kecewa kat situ ye. :|

Banyak nak cerita sebenarnya.
Cerita IBT and test haritu yang kena resit, or dgn kata lain, tak pass ye terima kasih banyakbanyak,
Cerita Bon Odori yang tak berapa menarik sebab macam terkinja waktu Maghrib pada malam Nisfu Syaaban,
Cerita Undoukai yang lepas tu kena pindah bilik walaupun da siap buat drama depan sensei taknak pindah atas sebabsebab tertentu,
& juga cerita cerita selainnyalah.
Pendek kata, cerita kedai kopi, kedai mamak, warung melayu, gerai apek semua ada.
Eh 1 Malaysia lah. :D

Kalau nak cerita pasal 1 Malaysia lagi lah tak habis. Sebab kalau nak tau dari surface, macam-macam yang our beloved PM dah gempar gempurkan. :)
Tapi, what's hiding behind and what we as rakyat see is a different thing all together.

Malas nak ulas. Tu baru sikit.

Kalau cerita panjang akan dicop berhaluan.
Just nak cakap, govn should aware that we, rakyat, judge by what we see. We can think and we have our views. You can't fool everyone, mister.

Kalau demokrasi buat lah gaya demokrasi.

Okeh tu je. Nak jenguk shukudai 社会 pulak. Hee.
Bye.♥

footNOTE: Doakan moga pass exam lepas ni, and Happy Ramadhan everyone ♥ ;)

EJU bulan june.

2011-05-31T12:55:00.001+08:00

Finally, a new post! :D
And like so obviously, as I only blog during my break, I know you know that im having my break now. For a week. =.= Yeah I know its short but its way better than never, no? it’s been awhile since my last only-1-bloody-week-holiday and I really need this break so much. Think IBT, think pressure. Lol. Not funneh. it’s a fact.

Just look how much shukudais i've got from IBT. THAT, is the shukudai for a week holiday.
Enjoyable much, eh?

Anyway, sekarang tengah penat. Penat dengan ibt. Heh. And on top of that, hari ahad haritu pergi lari ekiden run! :D Haha pergi announce kat sini macamlah menang first. Oklah tak menang. In fact dapat yang last dalam ibt. Nasib baik ade Juju, jadi kawan lari same-same, hee. Tapi takpe, sebab 目標 pun memang nak habiskan larian je. Tak terfikir langsung top 10 ape. Paling best, nama group kitorang ‘Jalan-jalan’! xD Alhamdulillah semua berjaya tamatkan larian & takde sakit-sakit, minus sakit kaki ye tu memang semua kena. Memang terharu giler ok bila nak sampai penamat tu tengok dak lain sorak-sorak. Sebab jadi fifth/last runner, masa lari tu terasa macam wakil negara pun ada. Ceewah gitu. :’) Padahal paling last dalam IBT. Patutlah semua da ade kat tepi dah mase tu. Patutlah sorakan kuat giler. Oh patutlaaaah. -.-‘

Tapi yang penting sekali, semangat & sokongan korang sangat terkesan di hati. And sangat lah happy sebab tak sangka dapat gak num tengah-tengah dlm 50++ group for women open. Thank you korang, without the effort of every single one of you, tak mungkin kita dapat complete larian ni. Sobsobs wuu terjiwang. Hee :’)

Ni group yang menang ke apetah. Woot woot congrats! :D

Hokhok. Ok next. ;p

And petang tu, lepas penat-penat bole pulak Anis ajak movie. Last-last balik tu memang sakit satu badan.

Kaki sakit ekiden 3km pagi tu. Tengah panas. Woooo mantap.
Tangan sakit main drum kat archade. Terus level high pulak tu tak bole blah. ==’
Tengkuk sakit tengok Priest. Dapat the very front seat. Dongak the whole 2hrs kot. Banyak lak tu sampai terjerit jerit. Me and Nad jadi penambah sound effect tak bertauliah kat situ LOL.
Perut sakit sumbat one set Kenny Rodgers lepas lahap 1 regular popcorn setiap sorang.
Pipi sakit tak tahan gelak ngn Nad & Anis. Dua2 otak gile. Kepala pun jadi gile. HOHO -___-‘

Memang setiap anggota ter-exercise sekali. Lantaklah, asalkan dapat lupakan ibt seketika.
Ahahaha tapi tak terlupa pun hahahaha ibt melekat di hati hahahahah malang sungguh hahahaha.

Muka budak-budak letih tapi degil tanak balik sebab sibuk cari mangsa nak amik gamba jugak 5 orang. xD

Speaking of IBT, haritu kitorang telah ~~dipaksa~~ pergi orientation kat Banting! It was 2 weeks back actually. And yang syoknye dia buat hari weekend Sabtu Ahad, and sekolah macam biasa the next Monday. HOW BRILLIANT WAS THAT. =.= Ini prog under JPA so takpelah kitorang pergi je.*muka pasrah* And worth it la actually. We had fun, sang song yang sangat mengharukan dan seperti biasa ada drama lepas kena psyco. Bayangkanlah lagu Hampir Ke Situ kena nyanyi setiap kali masuk module baru. Dah lah lagu tu memang kena gile dgn situation kitorang.

Moga apa jua akhirnya, kita terus bersama ek. Insya Allah. Sobsobs :’)

Group Maigo! 迷子！
Translate: budak sesat. xD

Petang tu sempat pujuk pakcik bus nak turun kat Pantai Morib, hehe. Dalam half an hour je tibatiba da jadi promoter peniup buih seperti di atas, menggoda kanak-kanak lain beli gak. Wahah, beruntung abang jual peniup buih ade pelanggan seperti kami kan. ;')

Suke! ♥

Walaupun wajah Yan terinterprem kat bawah. Sebok ahh xD

Tetiba teringat trip Tg. Bidara.
Hee rindu! Lagi-lagi dengan budak kecik anak owner chalet dua orang tu HAHAHA ok tipu tak rindu. xD

&& semalam! Pagi tu kemas rumah, then masa mak ambil nak balik Kajang, ternampak sign tepi jalan TESCO, KINI DIBUKA. Kitorang macam, ehh? bukan tengah buat lagi ke? Tapi da ade sign macam tu waaaa ape lagi, terus serbu. And rupa-rupanya Tesco yang tengah buat kat Jalan Kelang Lama tu memang still under construction kat tingkat atas, tapi Tesco kat bawah da mula operate, AND DAH 3 MINGGU DAH PUN ADOYAI KENAPA RASA MACAM KATAK BAWAH TEMPURUNG? =='

Wajah duta baru Tesco yang telah di banned oleh Tesco sendiri sebab takut makin tak laku. Ngahah :D

Ok lah lepas ni bole shopping kat Tesco. Kad Tesco pun dah buat *gile semangat* macam lah barang Tesco murah sangat. Tapi yela, nak bandingkan dengan SriKot or Jusco & Carrefour kat Mid tuu. -.-

And ohhhhhh neway, F26, batch kitorang dah 1 year! :D
Wooot woooot ;D

Dah setahun bersama, menempuh suka duka *ni macam nak jiwang balik je hoho*
Sayang korang banyakbanyak! ♥ :'3

And sekarang rumah dah pun berubah sikit. Living with kouhai for the moment. Kouhai, Syafinaz nama diberi, sangatlah sempoi. Haha. ;D Bilik belakang yang kosong dah jadikan bilik study hehehe konon nak dapat mood study tapi apehal tah tak study-study gak. Sengal.

Kindly ignore messiness please. ;p

And hari Khamis ni da plan nak keluar dgn Convent girls! Yay cant wait! ♥ xD

Oklah sekarang nak ucap hello kat shukudai yang banyak tu. Ucap je kot. Buat ntah bile. Woi Farhana EJU bulan June ok. Or say, in 2 weeks? Damn. Sekarang baru terasa cuak.

Bye blog. Hello shukudai :)

FootNOTE; Happy Birthday AZZIELAH & SAMILA! ♥ Already 19! :D and sorry for the belated wish. Hee ;p

And oh, Selamat Pengantin Baru kepada semua yang dah berkahwin! Hee. Banyak kenduri yang termiss. Banyak nasi minyak tak sempat merasa. :( Takpe takpe, doa dipanjatkan dari jauh, moga berkekalan sampai anak cucu ye. Amin ♥ :)

Its Friday

2011-04-08T01:05:00.005+08:00

Oh its Rebecca Black 'Friday' phenomenon.

Rebecca Black Most Disliked Person on YouTube

The Mystery of Rebecca Black

Rebecca Black's "Friday:" Justifiably the Laughing Stock of America

Duhhh.

C'mon people, stop criticizing her. I don't understand why people keep condemning her like shit. People who said 'rebecca go die' should go die himself. I'm sorry i sound harsh but thats just too much. Please keep in mind she is just a 13 year old girl with a dream, and when she was offered to record a song by Ark Music factory, i guess she must be over the moon. What she didn't know is that company is gonna give her a crap song like err well, that Friday song, for her to sing. And i dont think that company is trying to make big money out of her anyway, they just helping her to achieve her dream, in a small way, or less budget. And when it was released, who would have thought it would become this big?

I know the song and lyrics are horrible. And the video worsened it even more. Some even claim that her voice is the worst they ever heard that they turned deaf just by listening to it. Frankly speaking, i don't think its that bad. You guys are plainly exaggerating. Two words: fitting in. You heard your friends say 'hey heard that rebecca black? she *bla bla bla insert bitching here*' and then you surf the net, find the video, add to that bitching and tadaa you got what we have here now. You were just going with the flow, see?

I'm not asking you to support her or to be her big fan or something. Even I am not her fan, but im just against all this hating. 'Go cut yourself', 'your voice makes me puke', 'she is a fat duck' thats just too much. C'mon, take a look at yourself, do you even have the guts and determination to record a song, or do whatever it takes to get to your dream at the age of 13? Heh. No, very few did that, trust me.

If you want to support her effort, do it the right way. If not, let her be. Don't be such a bitch yourself.

But thanks to you haters, she got 50 million views in a week, almost 90 millions views until today, and way popular than you now.

People nowadays cant get enough of Lady Gaga and Justin Bieber; they are to be worshiped.
They now have Rebecca Black; she is here to be critiqued and hated.

Stop being so high school, and come back to reality, will ya? I've had enough of dramas already. Oh anyway, Im not pasting her video here. You gonna bitch here on my blog, and i hate that.

Wish you a Happy Friday. :)

ps: everyone still cant get over high school, it seems. Oh im so not alone. :')

lil confession

2011-04-07T16:06:00.002+08:00

Macam baru perasan.
Entah macam mana,

I still can't get over high school.

Dak convent, sila terharu sekarang. Hoho.

Maybe sebab pagi tadi dapat berita Cik Azizah, guru sesi petang Convent, meninggal dunia. Dengar arwah meninggal sebab cancer. Ya Allah, memang terkejut sangat. Walaupun beliau tak pernah ajar saya dulu, tapi still, beliau guru pandu puteri dan selalu conduct program. Macam mana pun, beliau tetap guru saya.
Al-Fatihah buat beliau, semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dalam golongan orang beriman.
You'll be missed. :'(

Dan serentak itu juga (ayat macam tak boleh blah) macam-macam kenangan kat Convent dulu datang balik. Dah lah semalam pergi singgah sekejap kat sana nak ambil Shahira. Masa tu tengok Convent 'eh, dah lain? Dekat sidewalk depan sekolah dah ada bumbung lah! Whoaaa' :O sambil buat muka jakun tahap gaban.
Hmmm nampak sangat dah lama gila tak jejak sekolah. Paling pedih bila mak yang tengah drive kata 'Eh da lama la tuu. Haa tu la contoh kacang lupakan kulit'.
Ohoho tajam menusuk kot. T.T
Tapi semalam pun tak sempat masuk pun, sebab nak ambil Shahira je. :(
Takpe takpe tunggu budak matrix habis sem, kitorang serbu convent ramai-ramai eh? Hee ;D

And dari situlah teringat betapa bahagianya kat highschool dulu. Teringat how we used to stay back and walk around Kajang Town aimlessly just to kill the time, macam mana rush nya kitorang sampai skip lunch bila nak pergi tuition petang, betapa syoknya belajar dalam kelas walaupun masa tu pun kerja tidur je.

Bahagianyaaaaa :')

Takpelah, semua tu dah jadi kenangan sekarang. And akan kekal sebagai antara kenangan paling best dalam hidup. Hee ;')

Ok nak pergi makan aiskrim.
♥

ps: Senpais, have a safe flight (TT 3 TT)/"

'fine' is undefined

2011-04-07T00:57:00.006+08:00

Had you been across a situation where there are things you wanted to say out for so long, but theres simply something holding you from doing so?
You know its never a harm to tell, but somehow you don't have the gut to say?
Oh does it feel bad. Bad to yourself as you know it, and bad to the other person involved too. And finally you just let it go, saying 'its nothing' with a lil smile just to assure that person that everything is fine. Everything in the world is going so fine.

But no its not fine. Its not fine when you cant stand yourself being so obedient, so forgiving, so patient. And obviously its not a good thing you loathe yourself being so positive.
Because what good do being optimistic brings when your own feelings gets dumped?
You push away your emotions for the sake of your optimistic belief you trust so well, neglecting whatever your heart tells, following whatever your brain commands, in every single action, judgement and acceptance on life.
And at the peak of the worse, you actually force yourself to cry. Lame? Yeah.

So much of being optimistic.

***

Now lemme shout H to the O to the L to the I to the D to the A to the Y! :D

That spells HOLIDAY. And i make it colourful just to get the holiday feeling, hee. But yeah as usual my HOLIDAY involves restless days with bucks of shukudais and more sighs. *Sighhh* Typical typical typical farhanas' holiday. Or i'd rather call that ibts' holiday. -___-'

And to make it more interesting i now have this list which i call To-Do-List. Wow sounds fun? Nope, it doesn't, actually. ;p

Here how it goes;

- shukudai
- shopping [food, daily use, stationery, more fooood]
- ~~movies~~ [dyba! ♥ :D ]
- 2 japanese dramas, borrowed from ibt, to be returned next monday
- learn a new song for piano
- clean room
- learn cooking
- bake a cake
- finish those unfinished books/novels
- update on latest songs, movies, drama, tv series

Yup i know the last one sounds the lamest, but being an ibt-ians means locking yourself out of the world to date with books and kanji all long. Oh, maybe its just me, as i dont own a broadband, nor do i receive any kindness from pakcik jalal to use his wifi for free from my room. *kecewa.=.='
So yeah, you can call me a qualified katak now. I bet fion will be proud with this. xD

Anyway, only one of those on the list had be accomplished. Obviously, the struck one. Another good thing is, im already half way through my holiday.

Ohoho life is good. ♥

Ps: al-Fatihah to arwah mak long. Semoga dicucuri rahmat dan sentiasa di bawah lindungan Allah. Ana rindu maklong :'(

pss: i noticed my recent posts tend to sound bitter. And pathetic. Ohh well. -.-'

satu jam untuk bumi

2011-03-26T20:58:00.003+08:00

Im proud i've done something, even it's as little as switching the light off. :)

Happy Earth Hour, people. ;)

ps: menyampah kat nyamuk. Baru nak menikmati alam malam dia dah kacau mood earth hour. Pffft -___-'

Radiation and the like

2011-03-19T04:03:00.001+08:00

Its Friday night at 3 and im still awake. Error, I’ve been woken up from sleep.

Blame you, body clock. Exam is already over but you are too obedient. What a nuisance. ==’

Im glad im at home now. Yesterday was fun, I hadn’t been meeting my family for quite a long time and we rolled the time very well. I’ve been missing them like mad anyway. :’)

I’ve taken my ‘baby’ back from the ‘ICU’ yesterday as well. She was admitted since last 3 weeks and it was a long wait. Now ‘she’ is back to me. Lol. If you can’t get it just ignore it. It’s a plain crappy statement.

Well, everything is crap now, you see.

My mind is in crap. My soul trapped in crap. My life is full of craps.

The same goes to the 3rd teiki shiken, 3rd periodical examination I’ve taken this week. That’s a major crabbyshitimsodead crap.

IBT is all about exam and study and we have no less than 2 big tests in a week, minus mini kanji test that screws my head without fail every morning. Like how I screwed my last exam. Yay.

Good news is my performance is dropping at an alarming rate. Think rate of radiation emission in japan now; my test/exam result is dropping as fast as that. A sudden furious breakdown that’s almost impossible to handle. I specially admire the man that risks his own life carrying bulks of water with a helicopter to the reactor to cool it down in Japan. I wonder how it feels like sacrificing you own health and life for the country and the people despite the radiation hazard. Would I do the same he did for my country or people or Islam? Or would I chicken away and pretend it’s nothing to bother?　それがまだ答えられないんだが、彼らのおかげで、自分のことを改めて考えることができた。いくら私自身以外のことを大切にしてるかというと、他人のことを自分のことより大切にするのはいいかどうか、これから真剣に考えよう。:)
-kindly ignore grammar and spelling mistakes, u know how bad my Japanese is. I even doubt the message gets through. lol *malu* ;p

Anyway, when the exam finished yesterday I really thought I would jump and yell BANZAI to the whole ibt. But now I know that feeling more depressed after an exam is typical, as to me. Serve me right, I know it wasn’t an all out struggle. Do better next time. <-- ayat menenang diri. Hee x)

You hide all you want, but you just don’t know,

The brittles of the berry, the clock is too slow;

The heat from the sun and a kiss from the rainbow,

Now I’ll just sit back, and see the world flow.

Eh kenapa tiba tiba keluar 俳句? ==’

Lantaklah.

Anyway, rindu kau lah blog. Have a great weekend. Bye :)

Ps: nak tengok hikayat merong ♥

what a life

2011-02-06T01:06:00.006+08:00

Will be back to IBT tomorrow :)

And oh, without senpai now. Sadd. :'( Dah takde siapa tengok movie malam2 dengan homemade DVD, tidur kat sofa teman saya study pagi buta, bising kat rumah sambil sembur sembur cicak, gossip dengan kitorang pasal semua top secret IBT.

Nanti dengan Yani JE 2 orang. Huaaa takkan nak gaduh dengan Yani jee tak meriah laa gaduh dua orang. Huaa kak faru kak fila jangan pergiiiiii T__T

Takpe takpe, nanti dapat jumpe around mid of Feb yay! :D

And before they fly, insyAllah dapat jumpa lagi kat airport yay! :D

Will be missing those good times we had. Sobs :')

Aaaand as always, I have a pile of shukudais to go. Ishhh boring ah balik balik cerita pasal shukudai macam takde benda lain dalam hidup. Blah la kau shukudai. ;p

This holiday was so-so. Not that exciting, not so productive, but errr.. well, so-so. My mom went through an operation and it went well. Alhamdulillah. :)

So this week banyak spent dekat hospital. On Friday I hanged dengan gang YuHua, and had fun with acik Hamidi & acik Pit girls that night! :D I've done my weekly shopping, done my room cleaning, done sorting out the books on shelfs, done revising for test next week, done this done that. And now Im sooo carefree...

...NOT.

Tipu je. All those things will never be done. Easier typed than done. Hohoho *cover sebab berjaya menfailkan diri lagi cuti ni*

Anyhow, I've got a day left, with those clean untouched shukudai. Haa kan dah masuk balik cerita shukudai. Shukudai memang teman sejati kan sobsob. *touched :')

Ok tamat sudah kisah cuti saya yang SANGAT MENARIK minggu ini. Sekian, jumpe lagi di episod minggu depan yang tak sure ade ke tak. Heh.

Tata. :)

ps: When I feel my life is plain, I paint it with smiles and bliss. When I see the going gets tough, I search where the bright side is. :)

pss: Happy Belated Chinese New Year! :D Wa mau itu angpao mali. Hee ♥

please take note

2011-01-31T19:42:00.002+08:00

Kalau anda bukan duduk di bawah batu, pasti ada terdengar berita mengenai revolusi rakyat Mesir menentang kerajaan pimpinan Hosni Mubarak.

Ketahuilah bahawa keadaan di sana adalah lebih teruk daripada jangkaan anda. Kalau anda baca akhbar harian dan tengok tv mainstream anda tak tahu apa yang berlaku secara terperinci. Asyik2 isu fasha sandha yang tak habis-habis lagi. PM kita pula sibuk dengan DUN Tenang dan spam email rakyat dengan ucapan CNY.

Kalau anda membaca post ini, harap boleh sebarkan di facebook, twitter, blog, tumblr masing2. Kalau boleh biar satu Malaysia tahu sebab ianya sangat penting. Ini melibatkan keselamatan, maruah, nyawa dan masa depan lebih 6000 pelajar Malaysia di sana. Kita harap dengan tersebarnya maklumat pihak kerajaan dapat melakukan tindakan yang sewajarnya.

edit: angka sebenar jumlah pelajar Malaysia di sana tidak diketahui, tapi ada sumber memaklumkan terdapat 11,000 rakyat Malaysia tinggal di seluruh Mesir.

edit 2 : beberapa rujukan telah ditambah.

Ringkasan : Rusuhan dan darurat di Mesir adalah berpunca daripada revolusi rakyat menentang kerajaan pimpinan Hosni Mubarak. Revolusi ini diinspirasikan daripada revolusi tunisia baru-baru ini dan dijangka banyak negara timur tengah akan turut menurut jejak langkah rakyat Tunisia dan Mesir untuk ber-demo.

Hosni Mubarak ialah diktator yang memerintah Mesir selama 30 tahun, dan mungkin anda tidak tahu Hosni Mubarak adalah pemerintah kejam, perampas harta rakyat dan juga sekutu US dan juga menyokong Israel. Media Malaysia kurang melaporkan berita mengenai ini dan ramai yang tidak tahu, ingat Mesir…bunyi Arab tu semua aman…semua baik-baik ke? Dah jadi riot baru kecoh satu dunia.

1. Huru-hara dan rusuhan di hampir semua tempat di Mesir

Rusuhan berlaku merata-rata tempat, orang awam bertempur dengan polis dan tentera…ramai terkorban, ramai cedera parah. Orang yang tak bersalah pun boleh jadi mangsa tanpa sedar.

2. Internet, Komunikasi Telefon Bimbit disekat

Dah beberapa hari sejak kerajaan Mesir menyekat Internet dan komunikasi telefon bimbit serta servis blackberry. Menyukarkan orang ramai untuk berhubung.

Ramai ibu bapa di Malaysia risau keadaan anak mereka di Mesir yang gagal dihubungi dan tidak tahu keadaan terkini isu di sana.

3. 5000 banduan terlepas dari penjara

Antara kes “prison break” terbesar setakat ini…5000 banduan telah terlepas dari penjara. 5000 tu jumlah yang sangat ramai, dan agak-agak apa banduan yang dah lama kena penjara akan buat bila dah terlepas? Dengar2 banduan pula spesies ganas2 yang terlepas.

Tak mungkin mereka insaf…yang pasti keganasan meningkat dan ramai menghadapi ancaman teruk.

sumber: http://goo.gl/KDkfI

4. Pelajar Malaysia dirogol, dirompak

Dengar berita ada pelajar Malaysia di Mesir yang telah menjadi mangsa rogol dan rompak. Rumah yang didiami mereka dicerobohi dan mereka tinggal dalam ketakutan.

Ini bukan perkara main-main kerana melibatkan maruah dan nyawa rakyat kita sendiri. Minta pihak kerajaan Malaysia memandang serius perkara ini, sebab kalau ikutkan coverage di akhbar dan tv sekarang memang langsung tak dipandang serius.

edit : Berikutan ada menyangkal point ini…ada baiknya anda lihat blog Krisis Mesir, Nasib Pelajar Kita dan mungkin rujuk entri ini juga

http://goo.gl/iE5Y4 dan juga http://goo.gl/aU1uI

5. Darurat, krisis tempat tinggal dan makanan

Tahu tak apa masalah besar bila darurat berlaku? Ramai akan menghadapi masalah tempat tinggal sebab macam dinyatakan di atas, kena ceroboh, kena bakar dll. Nak makan pun susah, kedai mana yang berani buka time kecoh-kecoh macam nie.

Lagi parah bila ada kemalangan, luka-luka dan terkena penyakit. Silap-silap dari sakit ringan-ringan boleh maut sebab tak dapat rawatan sebetulnya.

6. Airport, Balai Polis, Kereta diserang, dibakar

Lapangan terbang diceroboh dan di serang, dan segala urusan penerbangan banyak yang terpaksa di batalkan atas sebab keselamatan. Yang selamat hanya mereka yang ada pesawat peribadi.

Balai-balai polis dan kereta serta kenderaan di jalanraya banyak yang dibakar oleh perusuh. Terdapat juga insiden pihak tentera melanggar perusuh dengan kereta.

7. Bloggers seluruh Malaysia, take note!

Sebarkan maklumat berikut; dan minta kerajaan Malaysia memberi priority sebaik mungkin untuk isu ini.

Kita memohon supaya kerajaan Malaysia memandang serius hal ini. Bukan sahaja di Mansoura, malah di seluruh Mesir keselamatan rakyat kita terancam.
Segala update berkenaan keadaan di sana boleh dibaca melalui blog Krisis Mesir, Nasib Pelajar Kita
Jika ada cadangan di luar sana untuk membantu kami mendapatkan perhatian kerajaan Malaysia, sila hubungi Nurul Nadia Binti Md Zin di 017-3193923
Atau melalui:
Facebook: Nuvul Nadiva Dizavch
Twitter: DyyaDizarch
Blog: Nadia-ism
YM: nadia_mdzin2001@yahoo.com
Please let all Malaysians know about this. I will do the same but I need your help too especially to all the bloggers out there. May Allah save our citizens there.
- Nadia

8. Sebar-sebarkan berita mengenai ini

Mintak tolong sebar berita ini di facebook, twitter, yahoo messenger, email dll. Nak copy paste tak bagi kredit pun tak kisah kali ini, yang penting kita nak maklumat ini tersebar.

9. Bacaan berguna

Bagi yang tak tahu menahu mengenai isu ini boleh baca beberapa link berikut:

1. Krisis Mesir, Nasib Pelajar Kita

2. Facebook Pages – Selamatkan Pelajar kita di Egypt

3. What’s happening in Egypt

4. Ariffshah : Krisis Mesir Nasib Pelajar Kita

5. Obefiend – revolusi piramid bukan MLM Mesir

Yang ada Astro pun boleh tengok siaran Al-Jazeera. Sekian, entri khidmat masyarakat dari kami di JomPHP.

sumber dari http://jomphp.com/serius-krisis-sebenar-darurat-di-mesir-sebarkan-kepada-semua.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed:+Jomphp+(JomPHP)

Ya Allah, lindungilah sahabat-sahabat di sana.

yay

2011-01-31T14:05:00.002+08:00

Yay dah buang popup dalam blog :D
Yay dah cuti raya cina seminggu :D
Yay demam and hidung lari-lari :D
Yay shukudai bertimbun macam fujisan :D
Yay nak update banyak benda tapi tak dapat yay yay :D

Yay bye yay :D

oh, hello

2011-01-01T13:37:00.002+08:00

I know, I know. I shouldn't be here facing my lappy's screen. I really should turn back, get my butt off this chair and start facing the piling shukudais.

But oh, damn that piling shukudais.

I haven't got this urge to write for ages. I hardly remember the last time I had this desire to write, to have so much ideas come rushing through my head, ready to come out and to be poured over my blog.

And at this moment, its all coming back to me now. *sing Celine Dion.

Perfect.

In two days time, I will be back in IBT. More books, more tests, more tense, more gloom. Its a new year! :D But how can I be sure that life there would turn brand new as well? I've got this feeling that things gotta get worse. Its my EJU year, man. Things gotta be harder, less play and more sweats. I reckon it'll be a tough one, perhaps would bring mourns and tears twice as many. But you can't expect life could go easy forever, no? At one time or other you gotta face obstacles, fall on your knees, and learn the hard ways to live a life. Yet I believe, there would be plenty of love, joy and pleasure scattered around somewhere along the way. :)

And by the way, Im 19 now. :3
Weeeee xD

Big girls don't cry, they say. Or Fergie, to be exact. Sorry ma'am, I have to disagree. I'm a big girl now (almost there) so is that means I can't cry? Hey, how could you deny the greatest power of women? :) Women are meant to cry. Don't get me wrong, I know some people just hate crying, but thats how it works. Sometimes men cry too *cough* I don't know *cough* cant be sure how it goes for men. One thing for sure, you can't run away from howling your eyes out sometimes. It feels good, you feel your spirit being lifted up and poof! here comes the better-feeling you. I call that Bawl Meditation. Believe me, its good. :)
Allright, apart from the new panda-eyed-you scaring everyone away afterward. That, I call, the side effect. x)

Done my talk on crying. Eh? Why did I talk about it at the first place? =='

Never mind. Lets go on.

As the holiday is gonna end soon, even sooner than I expected, I need to confess that I've been an over the top loser this whole week. What? You wanna reward me bunch of flowers? Why, thanks. I know I deserve this. You may put that flower down on my grave during my burial. I'd appreciate that. :')

Because I'm in a SERIOUS BIG TROUBLE now. I'd be a roasted walking creature by monday. I landed myself in boiling soup, and now I hate myself for that. If only, if only, but there's no use anymore.

See? Told ya 2011 is not gonna be good. Even the beginning proves it.

2011 won't go easy on me. 2011 will be full of drama. 2011 will see me creeping every coming days with bloodred eyes and ugly cringe.
But for the time being, lets chillax, watch, and pray if I'll make it through this year. :)
No, lets do shukudai, die, and pray I'll make it to heaven. =='

Bye :)

PS: i need more positive vibes. Ive clouded myself with this thick sticky negative air now. Hand me the optimistic hat, anyone?

me, 2010 and everything in between

2010-12-30T21:51:00.003+08:00

Kenapa hujung tahun mesti semua buat highlights of the year? :O
Sebab kalau buat tengah tahun kau nak buang tebiat ke ape? =='

Ok so, how was mine? Well 2010 had been a great year for me. :')
Huahua cliche gila huahua. Kalau gitu baik tak payah cerita sebab setiap tahun nak jadi great year. Ok lah, tahun ni saya jadikan tahun yang tak berapa great sedang-sedang je. Eh tapi tak boleh jugak sebab memang tahun ni great macam alexandra the great tu walaupun takde kaitan pun. Tengok tu dah start cakap macam mahyun mak nazar novel menitis kaca form 1 tu nampak sangat sengal dah datang HAHAHA ok gelak sorang sorang malu bye.

Kalau bandingkan tahun ni dengan tahun last-last, (eh sambung jugak. Malu balik ah.) memang banyak perubahan jadi tahun ni. I finishes my high school this year, dapat result, dapat lesen, and finally dapat IBT. Abah dengan mak pun dapat naik haji, along dapat practical, Syahira habis darjah 3 (??). Memang bersyukur sangat-sangat. Alhamdulillah. :') Betul betul tak sangka kot. Tahun lepas waktu macam ni saya masih terblur sorang sorang lepas habis SPM. Macam mana agaknya lepas ni ek? Tak sangka ke IBT yang takde orang tahu yang bila cakap IBT semua jadi 'haa? tempat apa tu tak pernah dengar pun?' sambil tunjuk muka macam saya cakap bahasa alien. ==' Thank you IBT. You always makes me come out with full length explanation about you everytime I tell them about my so-called wellknown SEKOLAH. Pffft.

Azam tahun baru? Not much. I just wanna be an overall better person. Insya-Allah. :)
Malas nak buat long list kalau setakat nak paste kat blog pastu buat tak tahu for the whole year then next year tahun baru copy paste balik and the circle goes over and over every coming years. Eh macam best pulak. Nanti nak buat la eh eh tak tak. Saya jadi better person cukup. :)

So Farhana yang baru, prove me the new you. Jom buat shukudai and STOP ONLINING MACAM ORANG GILA. Now.

Happy New Year, peeps.
Wish you a great year ahead. :)
To those who came into my life within this year, im glad you all did. You rocks my life. x)
Hoho.

Tata nak tengok bunga api eh eh nak buat shukudai. ;)

ps: people changes with time. I can't agree more.

ぼくの恋人

2010-12-29T21:11:00.005+08:00

Presenting
Black Cat;

ぼくの恋人は黒い猫。
Hehe, cute. ;D

back then;

2010-12-29T01:33:00.000+08:00

Hey, high school. It had been a year since I left you. :)

Kita dah makan sama-sama.

Happy sama-sama.

Emo sama-sama.

Kecewa sama-sama.

Sakit sama-sama.

'Study' sama-sama.

Gila sama-sama.

Tension sama-sama.

Bajet sama-sama.

Tidur dalam kelas sama-sama.

Tuisyen sama-sama.

Tidur dalam tusyen sama-sama.

Pening sama-sama.

Marah sama-sama.

Bermalas sama-sama.

Disco sama-sama.

Bersilat sama-sama.

Scandal sama-sama.

Memanjat sama-sama.

Sesat sama-sama.

Bermanja dengan cikgu sama-sama.

Break the rules sama-sama.

Naughty sama-sama.

Kesejukan sama-sama.

Guilty sama-sama.

Baby sit Damia waktu petang sama-sama.

Dapat kelas terbersih sama-sama. *ehem*

Semualah sama-sama. Panas terik hujan badai salji ribut tsunami gunung berapi.
Semua kita dah rasa.

Dan akhirnya,

kita SPM sama-sama. :')

Cepatnya masa berlalu kan? Tuptaptuptap eh dah satu tahun WOOHOO TAK SANGKA OH BOLE SURVIVE KAT LUAR TU. :D

Dulu kita selalu borak. Macam mana agaknya bila dah habis sekolah? Ke mana agaknya kita pergi? Pastu berangan nak pergi U sama-sama. Nak duduk serumah, so yang ni masak, yang ni kemas rumah, yang ni manage laundry etc etc etc. Tapi rupanya tak semudah tu kan? Walaupun tak sama dengan angan-angan, kita redah jugak.
Sebab しかたない; shikata nai, we had no choice.
And sebab life goes on. :)

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives. Where we're gonna be when we turn 25. I keep thinking times will never change. Keep on thinking things will always be the same. But when we leave this year we won't be coming back. No more hanging out cause we're on a different track. And if you got something that you need to say. You better say it right now cause you don't have another day. Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down. These memories are playing like a film without sound. And I keep thinking of the night in June. I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon. And there was me and you, and then it got real blue. Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and, we would get so excited, we'd get so scared. Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair.
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money. When we look back now, will that joke still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break every single rule. Will little brainy BeeLi be the stockbroker man? Can Humairah find a job that won't interfere with her tan? I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly.
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? I guess I thought that this would never end. And suddenly it's like we're women and men. Will the past be a shadow that will follow us ‘round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town. I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye. Keep on thinking it's a time to fly.

Bak kata VitaminC, kita still boleh jadi friends forever.
So lets be. :)

Thank you, for making my 5 years of high school a memorable one. :')

Take care, XOXO. ♥

PS: Out of sudden I miss you laa Convent. How now? x)

capella gaga

2010-12-28T13:41:00.004+08:00

Nantonaku saya rasa mereka comel. Hee x)

santan for santa

2010-12-27T22:32:00.002+08:00

Dear Santa,

I’ve been waiting for you since last 2 nights, but you never come. I waited for you to ~~fall down the chimney~~ crash through the sliding door, maybe with a parcel of wrapped box or some candies, but you never show up. I prepared a plate full of homemade kuihmuih for you on the coffee table, but it’s still untouched. I hanged socks and placed a beautifully lit kelapa tree topped with cute shiny stars, but the ground where the tree sat, is still empty, to my disappointment.

I’ve maintained a good attitude throughout this year, so I wish for some tiny little gift. I don’t ask for much, a small bite on the kuihmuih would be more than enough. At least I know you stopped-by, and let your reindeer have some of my specially made koci and kuih lapis, among a dozen more kuihs. And leave me a candy cane, perhaps? Guess you get what I mean.

Or did you get lost along the way? I hope you find you way down here to Malaysia by tonight. I understand the time and climax difference between here and the pole could drive you insane, but I won’t lose hope. I’ll keep waiting, I know you will never let a good girl down. And if you need one, I will spare you an atlas map just so you won’t get lost on your way back to the pole.

Have a safe journey. :)

Sincerely,
The Good Girl.

Ps: Hohoho Merry Belated Christmas. ;)

Proudly present my SnowWoman! 100% made from shahira's play-doh. Lol I know she's cute. ;D

hisashiburi ne

2010-12-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

Or in other words, long time no see. ;D

Oh dear, here I am again. Gone for two months, I've successfully made a self-accomplishment by not onlining for that whole period. Woohoo. BD
Well, minus some occasional facebook checkup on phone. Hee.

So what happened within that two months? There's too much to tell i would end up writing this post for 2 days straight. Cool.

Family. My parents went for Hajj at Mekah for 44 days, from 23th October, until last Wednesday, 8th December. Yeah its that long. Alhamdulillah things had gone smooth and easy, and there wasn't much conflict along the way. Shahira stayed in Kajang with Obek Sal until year end semester school break. Along stayed in Kajang too, being a fulltime-unpaid-driver to ship Shahira for school everyday, to bring Obek for Tesco household shopping every weekend, and for himself to and fro from college or for dating with his sweetheart. Eh, i didn't know he had one. EHEM. xD And me, I'd been staying in hostel all that long. Wheehee i've never stayed away from home THAT long, man. Try beat that. xD

School. Zzz. School had been fantastically hectic chaotic frantic itik. But since when it doesn't? First semester final exam had passed, and it was just as itik. Orite lets stop talking bout this heart-crunching matter, shall we? What gone is gone. A stupid mistake remains a stupid mistake. There, my emo comes again. Yippiee~
Second semester marks a new beginning. Keizai (economy) and Chili (~~cili padi~~ geography) classes had started last week. And to my own surprise, I ACTUALLY FOUND THAT TWO SUBJECTS INTERESTING. Wow Farhana, congrats. You began loving social science subjects. Unbelievable as it sounds, its a good start! :) Lets just hope my new found spirit stay with me for the rest of my life. *sing Maher Zain. ;p
My biggest problem now is the Kanji. The two subjects are taught in full japanese. Kanji bakari. Damn. I thought what i learnt in Yu Hua was disaster enough.

Life. Well life. It was no less chaotic. But hey, am i being unfair? I've been telling as if my life was completely miserable. To be honest, life is going on just great. From attended events, Haji holiday with family Tiram, BBQ and splash at pantai dunno where, TWO burgers to fill my tummy every single night at Tiram, lone bus ride back kajang, constant visit to midvalley every weekends, short meeting with those Japanese students exchange last week with broken japanese, Japanese Language Proficiency Test at KL, more splashes at swimming pool whenever we dont feel like studying, class mini-dinner together, study group at hostel lobby (or more known as misi skodeng nihonjin malam-malam), arrival of Haji Akashah and Hajah Ratnah with boxes of goodies from Mekah, mini-usrah walk at Botani with MIAT students, more play, more craze, more fun.

That was it. Two months happening squeezed in one sentence. Hoho. Alright, im done till here. I just don't feel like writing anymore. Oh help, passion in blogging is fading. Gotta back to more homeworks. x__x'

Bye bloggie dear. Wont come back often now, pak cik Jalal dah kedekut nak share wifi dia. :'(
Till next post.

ps: Blog ni macam ade virus ke apetah. Tsk. Kalau sembur ridsect virus tu mati tak? :O

sekarang dah pagi

2010-09-24T01:35:00.002+08:00

tapi saya masih di sini.

Mana tak sengal tu? Tu pasal title main letak benda mengarut hoho. Pastu lagi nak sambung mengarut kat sini hanya sebab tangan naik miang nak tekan keyboard ni macam jakun. Padahal sakubung yang bermaksud esei dalam Jepun tu tak siap lagi. Ceh bajet guna 'yang bermaksud' berangan lah tu macam SPM lagi. Dan ingat ye, sebutan dia sa-ku-bung tau bukan sekubung ke sekabung ke berkabung tau, walaupun masa buat tu memang rase nak berkabung. =='

Baru tadi pergi jumpa Jalal Yusof. Eh eh salah. Pergi Restoran Jalal Yusof makan roti pisang. Lepas tu balik, tenung ~~berkabung~~ sakubung tu sekejap, pastu terasa laptop ni macam ada tangan dok panggil-panggil. Mula-mula jeling-jeling je, taknak layan sangat tangan laptop yang panggil-panggil ni. Tapi macam menggoda sangat, tau-tau tangan dah dekat laptop dah. Nak buat macam mana? Bukan salah saya kan? Salah En. Laptop lah kan kan kan?

Kalau saya kata macam tu dekat sensei sebab tak siap sakubung rasa-rasa boleh terima ke tak ek. Kena baling dengan selipar jepun lagi ade kot. *buat-buat wonder*

Besok ada test kanji sederhana besar. Nasib baik kaiwa yang bermaksud drama tu dah buat tadi. Hehe bajet lagi dengan 'yang bermaksud'. Tapi kaiwa tu pun bukan drama sangat. Tolong jangan tertipu dengan term drama ye, sebab kaiwa disini adalah perbuatan menghafal macam sewel conversations dalam buku teks pastu dengan pasangan yang sensei pick, kami berdiri depan kelas baca balik convo tu macam kayu. Biasanya memang menjadi gila lah drama kayu kitorang. Boleh menang Oscar jadi Pelakon Kayu Terbaik kot. Ya, sila salute sekarang.B) *claps*

Dah tak tahu nak mengarut apa lagi. Sebab mata dah ngantuk tapi sebab ada test kanji kenalah bukak internet. Hekhek macam takde kena mengena lah pulak.

Dahlah. Nak layan mata pulak. Semoga berjumpa lagi di karutan akan datang. Selamat ~~malam~~ pagi. :)

bila saya yang tua beraya

2010-09-14T00:41:00.003+08:00

maka Hari Raya akan jadi hari pilu yang meruntuhkan jiwa lantas buat aku emo. Heh.

Its sad when people ask you whether you are still schooling. Because I'll answer 'YES! :D'

But just as the pretty angpau ALMOST handed over to me, the truth finally unfolds when they discovered that I am now 'schooling' at IBT - A COLLEGE. Yup, its an ugly truth.

'Oh! You are big enough then, my dear.' They will smile, and gladly pull away the angpau back in a dash.

Can you imagine how my heart sinks? T...T

Today, 4th Raya.
My Raya was fun. I didn't get to balik kampung, so I spent my Raya here with a couple of aunt's family. :) The funnest time was during Raya Eve, when TnB decided that we might produce more delicious rendang and sambal ayam along with ketupat if we cook in the dark with pelita by our side. And so they cut the power off of the whole area that night. Just brilliant, TnB, we really had nothing else to do other than playing with bunga api sticks and chill around thinking how fabulous everyone will looks like on pagi raya with crumpled, wrinkled baju kurung. =='

And TnB continued to provide great service by generously connecting the power back as late as 5 a.m. Thanks, ALOT. >;( We then set for normal Pagi Raya routine, all dressed up in sparkling shop-scented baju melayu, and off the guys to masjid for solat sunat. Ohh I guess the rest need no telling, you would know yourself just how the flood drama turn everyone into teary-faces. ;p

Next, the raya trip follows. It was quite different this year. We didn't get to drop by many houses because there was some misplanning here and there. But every trip worths every second of it. :) Err, minus the angpau part. xD

Need some sleep now, and shukudais are still waiting. A week of work to be sorted out within a day is tragedylicious. Pheww. -.-' I guess I nida stop my profession as a pro-procrastinator from now on. Alright, just forget how many times had I said that. =='

Will paste some pics here later, if time permit. :)
Happy Raya everyone, and Happy Holiday. (I wished that too, am I right? ;p)

What? Burn a Koran Day? If that is how you show your remembrance towards 9/11, shame on you Terry Jones.

ps: I hate growing up. I always do. But since I've got no choice, Im gotta make it a blast just so I wouldn't end it as a guilt. You owe me big time, adulthood. :)

raya datang lagi :D

2010-09-09T13:35:00.004+08:00

Baju baru dah ada.
Kasut baru dah beli.
Kuih dah bertimbun.
Bawang dah beres.
Ayam dah kejar.
Lembu pun berjaya disembelih.
Ketupat elok dalam periuk.
Lemang tinggal beli jee.

Apa lagi?

ITS RAYAAAA!!
WEEHEEEE :D

Dikesempatan ini saya nak susun sepuluh jari untuk menaip kemaafan saya pada semua. Andai pernah termarah, terkutuk, terperli, tersalah cakap, terbaling barang, terpukul, tercubit, & terrr terrr lain lagi lah. Malas nak list banyak banyak ter sebab tiap tahun pun sama je ter dia. ==' In short, sempena hari baik bulan baik ni ampunkanlah setiap salah siap saya pada semua. Kita sama-sama bermaaf-maafan lah ye. :) Kalau lepas ni ada lagi salah silap, tahun depan saya minta maaf balik lah ye. Hehe taklah taklah. Kalau panjang umur, InsyaAllah kita jumpa aidilfitri lagi tahun depan. :')

Dengan ini juga saya nak ajak SEMUA datang rumah saya. Tak kira, korang kena datang jugak MUAHAHA. >:D Cuma saya start class on 14th. So sampai Isnin 4th Raya je ada kat rumah. SOBS. :'( Sebab tu juga saya tak balik kampung tahun ni. Double SOBS. :'((
But anyhow, weekends saya FREEE so semua sila datang waktu tu untuk kueh mueh yang saya dah buat! Kueh apa? Nak tahu sila datang. Jeng jeng jeng. :D

Ok lah mak dah panggil nak basuh periuk bye. :D

Ps: Tak sabar nak tunggu orang huluq duit raya sambil berdrama banjir nanti. Gehehe. $.$ xD

when vip seats in my heart are taken :O

2010-08-29T23:28:00.016+08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone, I've tried
But I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down, I know,
I've got to let it goooo

And just enjoy the show :)

This song just crossed my mind, and now I can't get it out of my head. Along with millions of random memories that rush like a flock of pigeons, so sudden it leaves me blank. Pitch black with a mixture the emotions. How I wish I could replay those moments, and seize those smiles and laughter into a single portrait. A perfect capture of pure happiness and joy I once had, and still gaining till today. :)

I think emo struck best at night, and I'm not wrong. ;p

Come on Farhana, sleep already. Time won't wait. Masa takde kerja taknak tidur, masa banyak kerja sibuk nak tidur. Ishh babab jugak kang. Dah lah besok test kanji oh. Kalau dapat mo ichido besok sila ji sa tsu dari bumbung IBT dengan segala hormatnya ye. =,='

Anyway, to 3 of my besties, :D

FION the smartypants, turned 18 on 3rd August 2010.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SIFUUUU! ♥♥♥ :D
Ok fine I wanted to wish u one month late JUST AS WHAT U DID TO MEEEEE. *smack u >;(*
But Im such a good friend, u see? I WISHED YOU NOT EVEN A MINUTE LATE. 0:) *oh-im-such-an-angel face LOL*
Anyway what matters here most is that you're still my bestie lah lame-jiwang-ass. ♥ :D
Wish you the best in life, sifu! And never forget our octopus! He/she (oh shitto we still haven't decide ITs gender la donk) will need us both as IT grows up. (nida use IT for the time being it seems ;p) And please miss me ALOT! xD
God bless! :D Study hard and smart, and be the greatest doc ever, ok? BESTIE FOREVER EVER!! :D :D :D
U must come raya my house I dont care and I dont wanna hear any excuse saying u nida date ur 43th hubby, alright? >:D

NAJIHAH the cutie pie, turned 18 on 26th August 2010.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AWAKKK! ♥♥♥ :D
Akhirnya awak dah sama tua dengan kita! YAY! ♥ :D
Sorry sangat lambat wish sobs sobs :'(
Kita asyik tertangguh sebab busy sikit lately. SORRY SORRY SORRY. :'(
And sorry terpaksa dengar suara kita nyanyi yang tak berapa nak merdu tu, hehe. Takpe lah kalau Kuala Pilah hujan nanti awak ngan umai boleh tidur nyenyak sambil mimpi kita kat sini ni, ngehehe. xD
Semoga terus dipanjangkan umur and murah rezeki ye wak. And may our friendship lasts foreber eber! Hihi cheewah gitu. :D :D :D
Take care tau and awak kawin nanti kita nak jadi pengapit gak tak kira, hehe. :D
Kita kita FUN ni MESTI keluar raya sama nanti macam selalu! PWOMISE TAU! ;D Tak sabar nak menyempit 6 orang dalam kereta sampai kena saman lagi sekali TEEHEE. Cuma kali ni UMAI lah yang kena drive, kan kan? Ehehee xD

DYBA the vogue classy madonna, turned 18 on 28th August 2010.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BESTEST FF! ♥♥♥ :D
Untuk kau dah wish sana sini tapi still nak wish jugak banyak kali huahaha. xD
Aku doakan yang terbaik untuk kau, BFF! :D Memang hidup banyak cabaran but Im sure kau boleh go through it! GO FOR IT, BEB! :D :D :D
For anything, always remember aku kat sini, ok? I will be in service! ♥ ;D
BFF sampai bila-bila! Ingat, janji business partner kita tu still on tau walaupun kau bakal jadi ustazah nanti. Hehe. ;p
Stay vogue, pwetty! Keep ur spirit up and never look back again! May Allah bless, AMIN. :D
Raya nanti kau dah pakai cun melecun mana boleh tak datang rumah aku. ITU WAJIB TAU. Heee nanti aku tunggu depan rumah dengan red carpet untuk kawan aku sorang ni. xD

Oh now lagu raya pulak berkumandang. Ok nak sambung emo bye. xD

PS: My life belongs to HIM. Only HE could decide the path I would take. I've just gotta stay strong, enjoy life, and go for it. HE knows what lies ahead, even when it seems like the most ridiculous thing ever when it comes to choosing.
So when life plays its tricks, I only turn on HIM for guidance. :)

Ramadhan ♥

2010-08-22T18:36:00.001+08:00

Oh hello there! :D
Wow cant believe I can survive that long without blogging. Sob sob terharu dengan diri sendiri. Hee :']

And walaupun dah hampir 2 minggu, but still,

Salam Ramadhan peeps! :D

Woot woot its PUASA time again! Weeee~ :D
Its time again for waking up at 5 dengan muka penyek makan sahur ramai-ramai. :)
Its time again for swallowing that wholeplate of sahur konon sebagai bekalan sampai petang. :3
Its time again for those glare and frown everytime i laid my eyes on the clock sebab tak sampai-sampai pukul 7.30 p.m. =='
And paling penting, its time for bazaar Ramadhan again! TEEHEE :D

Cuma kali ini, first time puasa without family. :( Yelah dah makin besar, tak mungkin sampai bila-bila nak dengan family je kan. I still have no idea how it will turn out. The first 2 weeks went quite ok. :) Cuma diet jadi pelik sikit sebab biasanya buka makan kuih, sahur makan nasi. Kat hostel sekarang terbalik. ==' Makanan pun tak banyak choice sangat. Nasib baik lah bazaar yang secoet tu dekat je dengan hostel. So turun je dari bas dari IBT masing-masing terus serbu bazaar tu berlari macam orang gila sampai pernah kena tegur dengan sorang makcik 'eh jangan lari nanti jatuh!' Terasa macam budak darjah satu kena tegur dengan cikgu pun ada. *shy T.T

Part paling payah masa nak tahan nafsu beli tu beli ni. Kalau boleh semua nak beli macam bajet perut ada 10 tangki hehe. Tiap hari beli lebih sebab plan nak makan malam nanti padahal lepas tarawih je mesti terus terbungkang. Shukudai pun siapkan sebelum sahur tu pun KALAU terbangun awal. Tsk tsk =,='

Tapi tak kisahlah kan. Yang penting, semoga Ramadhan kali ini diusahakan ke arah yang lebih baik and kita sama-sama kena kejar fadhilat bulan mulia yang datang sekali je setahun ini. Amin, may Allah bless. :)

And as I didn't get to online much now, cerita basi berkulat pun dah bertimbun sebenarnya. Saya sekarang dah pun tukar bilik dah kat hostel tu walaupun rumah still sama and sekarang duduk master bedroom YAY. ;D Dah pun pergi kem orientation kat BakauGruv sebelum cuti haritu yang berjaya buat semua orang emo.==' Saya sekarang dah pun dapat L license dengan susah payahnya masa cuti haritu WEEHEE. :D Dah masuk UndoKai (Sports Day) lepas cuti haritu and aka team (red team) dapat 3rd place HEE.

Malas nak cerita banyak. Sebenonya nak buat long post tapi sebab Mr.Time envy me so much so letak gambar sudaaa. ;)

Orientation Camp, BakauGruv Kuala Selangor.

Untuk camp kali ni macam pelik sikit. Sebab tak macam camp pun, macam kursus je adelah. Takde pun masuk hutan, takde pun tidur dalam khemah, takde pun motto group or bendera and makan pun siap berhidang atas meja APA KES CAMP MACAM NI WEYH? Maybe IBT kan private so macam ni la eh orang kaya bercamping? Maybe so. =='

But anyway it was still FUN! :D Eh tapi memang pun kalau tanya saya semua benda nak FUN je, hee. Walaupun takde outdoor activity sangat tapi banyak yang saya dah belajar dari camp tu. And part paling best bila budak-budak ni innocent pergi terpengaruh dengan cakap fasi petang nak balik tu and semua sempat berdrama baik punya kat bawah pondok tepi tasik sampai saya pun terpengaruh sekali WTH. =='

Bergambar sakan lepas berdrama banjir-banjir.

Opps sorry Faizah muka kau bercahaya macam matahari belakang kau dah. ;p

Dorian to iuu no tabemono wa tottemo daisuki! ♥
Durian is ♥! ;)

Iklan kasut. x)

UndouKai, Sports Day.

Sports Day IBT pun tak kurang peliknya. Yelah game dia pun tah pape sikit. Takde lompat jauh, takde lompat tinggi, takde lontar peluru, takde takde takde. Yang ada acara pass bola bagi orang belakang and lompat tali ramai-ramai APA KES SPORTS DAY MACAM NI WEYH. ==' Nasib baik ada tarik tali and relay, at least terasa macam bersukan. And can you believe acara warm up pun ada lagu and cara dia sendiri?

Meh saya tunjuk. :)

Macam ni lah kitorang joget pagi-pagi. :O
Orang Japanese ni memang banyak benda mengarut. =='

Untuk sports saya masuk relay! Ye sila jaw drop sekarang. ;p Saya pun tak tau macam mana boleh termasuk walaupun lari macam hamster terkedek-kedek. ==' Tapi yang pasti untuk perempuan dapat second place! Pewwit! xD For sure bukan sayalah yang menyumbang tu. Nasib baik ada Yani, Nadhirah, Najwa. You rock, girls. ;D

Kohai (junior) dengan Onomoto Sensei, mathematics sensei yang comel tu hikhik.

Kohai akachan. ;p

Kami kami semua.

Aka, 3rd but still rocks! xD

Lepas berjaya menamatkan Sports Day dengan penat lelahnya, we went for a splash at the pool! WEEEEE heaven~! ♥ ♥ ♥

Saya tersembunyi ye.

Berangan buat water acrobatic. ;p

Ahh it seems that Mr.Time is getting fed up. Opps he is unhappy now and I've gotta rush for my shukudai. :p
Allright Mr.Time, now its time for the race between me and you. ;)

Bye. ;D

ps: Kebab is at the risk of extinction. Its so hard find a single stall of kebab nowadays. Oh SHIT MY DEARY KEBAB. RIP, you'll be missed this Ramadhan. :'(

Oi Farhana.

2010-08-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

Shukudai lah, shukudai.
Cepat pergi buat lah, jangan tangguh dah.
Perangai buruk kau ni dari dulu tak pernah ubah.
Penat lah, tau tak? Penat layan kerenah tangguh-tangguh ni.
Asyik fikir alaa takpe petang ni lah buat, ade masa lagi.
Pastu bila petang tibe-tibe ade hal lain pulak.
Nak pergi tesco lah, pergi makan luar lah.
Pastu mula merungut sebab plan nak buat shukudai dah tak jadi.
Mula lah cakap ahh kalau tau buat tadi, kan dah susah sekarang.
Pastu buat azam setinggi everest konon-konon lepas ni taknak tangguh lagi.
Berazam bila balik je terus nak menghadap shukudai, nak buat, nak habiskan.
Tapi ceh, satu hapak pun tak guna la weyh.
Bila balik sama jugak, still jugak fikir takpelah besok ada masa lagi.
And besoknya pun sama, fikir takpelah besok punya besok masih cuti lagi.
Bukak facebook ni sekejap je.
Skodeng blog tu pun sekejap.
Nak tengok youtube yang penting je.
Download lagu tu pun sikit je.
Last last, malam sebelum hantar baru kelam kabut cari shukudai.
Baru sedar shukudai rupanya berlambak macam baju jual bundle kat mydin.
Baru sedar shukudai rupanya dah berkulat bercendawan bermushroom lagi.
Baru sedar shukudai rupanya tak semudah abc 123 alifbata doremi.
Baru sedar terseksanya kerja bertimbun kena buat sekaligus 1 hari.
Baru sedar ohh bodoh rupanya kerja bertangguh homework ni.

Masa tulah rasa nak cekik diri sendiri, nak sekeh and baling dari balcony.
And masa tulah buat lagi sekali azam tinggi sikit dari everest tadi.
Berazam konon nak jadi Farhana yang baru, yang siap shukudai sebaik sahaja start cuti, nak berubah.
Berazam konon cuti lepas ni nak guna baik-baik, taknak tangguh dah, nak kembali ke pangkal jalan.

Tapi, heh.

Macam dah biasa kan? Dengan situasi camtu?
Dah dari high school lagi kau dah camtu.
Macam tak sah kalau tak tangguh. Macam tak jadi Farhana kalau tak tangguh.
Mula-mula ingatkan mase high school je sikap camtu.
Rupanya sampai habis sekolah pun samee je kau ni.
Tulah, nak ubah perangai buruk pun bertangguh.
Kau ingat sikap buruk kalau tak ubah dari awal boleh terubah sendiri dalam 1 hari?
Haa fikir lah lagi camtu.
Padan muka, sampai sekarang melekat sikap tu.
Padan muka, sampai sekarang suka bertangguh.
Padan muka, sampai sekarang shukudai tak siap.
Padan muka, nanti kena panggil dengan Sumitani.
Padan muka, sampai sekarang kau buat kau sendiri benci hari cuti.

Padan muka kau. Ha ha ha padan muka.

Dah dah. Pergi. Buat. Shukudai. Sekarang. Jangan. Menggedik. Nak. Tidur.
Bye.

I've been missing my besties like ohh so badly :(

2010-07-29T23:03:00.012+08:00

And FINALLY I met them all today!
AWWWH HEAVEN! :D ♥ :D ♥ :D ♥

Aww ok dah tak rindu dah. :')

We went to MidValley early in the morning! The plan was to meet at KTM at 8.30 a.m, but someone-ehem-ehem-i-wonder-who came an hour late, and that girl WAS THE ONE THAT ARE HAVING DRIVING CLASS IN THE EVENING AND WAS THE ONE THAT HAD BEEN TELLING EVERYONE TO BE PUNCTUAL because we don't have much time left after the movie. And yet SHE came late. >;(
Grrr notty notty Farhana Ariffah! Jom cekik beliau ramai-ramai hehe.

And when i first saw them, other than rasa excited tahap dewa sampai rasa nak hug banyak kali, what i noticed most is that OHMYGAWD THEY HAD CHANGED! :D Time really can do us wonder, yes? Just a few months and poof! here comes another person! Lol okay tu magic sangat. Hiperbola besut betul. Takdelah berubah sangat pun actually. :)
Meh saksikan sendiri! :D Jengjengjeng...
HEHE terasa macam pengacara Majalah3 pun ada.

*pics taken ontheway back home actually*

OhMyGawd Farhana awak dah pakai tudung cara lain! :O

♥
Oh sweet oh sweet! :D

OhMyGawd Fion since when u thinned down?! :O

♥
Ok maybe not.
Lol kidding. ;p

OhMyGawd Najihah awak makin comel! :D

♥
Macam kawan dia jugak la kan? Hikhik *sipusipu ;p

Tapi yang paling best, tadaaa OHMYGAWD UMAI AWAK DAH PAKAI SPECS! :D

♥
ALOLOLOO TENGOK TU DAH MACAM NENEK NAK PELUK CUCU. Ngehehe xD

Well, they actually don't change much afterall. Same old, same old. xD

Next went straight to MidValley Megamall. After we swallowed a round of McD (a must!), on we went for the movie! And yes, it was

Eclipse!
*scream* :D

Okay memang ketinggalan sangat dah ni, tapi sebab dah janji sehati sejiwa dari dulu nak tengok Eclipse sama-sama kan so akhirnya dapat lah jugak time cuti ni, hee. :')

The movie was nice. :) At least better than New Moon.
And man, sehati sejiwa juga kami kata
wow Taylor Lautner awak sangat panas will you marry me NOW? *drolls ♥.♥
Eh ke saya je yang kata cenggitu? -,-

Anyway, as soon as the movie ended, everyone had to rush back to Kajang because I have driving class at 3. If not because of that perhaps we can spend more time there. :( Im so sorry girls. :'(
But beneath all, camwhoring must comes first! ;D

Hello cinema! :D
Shaky shaky pun nak jugak ambil dalam gelap. =='

Oh did I tell that girls love mirrors? :D

See?
For us, we never get enough.

Never.

And alot alot alot more which i feel unnecessary (or just, lazy) to paste them on here. ;p
Pssst, allright Fion u may take this picture from here. I know u like this snap to death. ;p

To all my besties (Convent it is ;)), THANK YOU so much for all the time and fun we had! :D Really glad we could finally go out together after so long kan? :') But once is not enough! Jom keluar lagi! Hehe.
Please take care and study smart, allright? My prayers will always be with you. ♥

Will miss u guys alot! :'D

And thanks alot for the KumaKuma, Fion! Finally my KumaKuma had found his soulmate! :'D

♥ Happy Kuma Kuma Family. ♥

Bye. :)

i say ay ay yupi yupi eyh!

2010-07-26T22:01:00.015+08:00

I was always scared of changes. For me, things will be better if they remain the way they are. The idea of transformation, evolution, replacement, conversion, anything that involves changes never fail to make me feel uneasy. Be it transferring into a new school, changing of seat in classroom, moving into a new house, changing of housemates, replacing old bag with new bag, buying new pencil to replace the old one, well i guess u got my point. Needless to say when you are in a new stage in your life, where you've gotta leave your good ol' life and embark on a new journey, of which you actually have little idea where it would lead you at the end. A brand new life, with a whole lot more in between. Doesn't that makes you feel scared and uncertain? It does, for me. :(

And when it did happen, you began to feel lonely. Because you are not used to that, and you need something, or someone to help you through everything. But it seems you had lost all connection with your old life. You got lost in track with time and happenings around you, you don't even mind to care about yourself. You would had tried to fit in, but you get tired of trying too much while nobody take any concern, and you finally realize you were left too behind. You struggle your way alone, unable to trust anybody too easily, and a part of you still longing for that old life. Until to the point it reach the lowest breaking point, and that's where miracles usually happen. Someone comes, lend a hand and help you through just as you wished for. But HECK, reality is not always pleasing, it didn't happen sometimes, or it came way too late. And by then even when you cry your heart out, it just didn't happen the way you wanted. But yes, you still gotta go on.

Because time will heal. And God will hear.
Apparently we all depends only on these two. And from that, we earn priceless values. :')

Oh well, cut the nonsense right there. No more long crappy blurbs, Farhana. Emo swing struck again? Hehe my lame-o cover up line. =='

And please cheer up, girl! Because its...

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*drum rolls*

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H.O.L.I.D.A.Y!
*screams!* xD

Shush away your gloom, tune on, let it bloom! :D :D :D :D :D
Its a week break! Oh my, for God sake! *grin*
A week without class or nasi lemak for lunch! Oh yeah how fun! *smiles*
And guess what people, matrics are having their semester break for a week too! WEEEE cant wait for another hangout, girls! *super smiles* xD
Hehe excited much, huh? ;p

Oh ok lets forget that piles of paperwork from IBT with that big 'MO ICHIDO/redo' in red on it. *gloom*
Along with that thick mathematics and japanese shukudai/homework just to fill my holiday with more japanese craps. *cry*
Oh not to forget those kanji homeworks, which i love so much because its so fun i can do even with my mp3 on hehe. Its too simple, you just need to copy each sentence 5 times! :D Nahh easy. BUT, when I've got around 8 papers of them, and each have 10++ sentences to copy, it means 800++ sentences are waiting for me. GREAT. So much of being a pro procrastinator. *bang head* =='

And there are ALOT of things to be sorted out in this short break. I've gotta do my medical checkup, settle my driving license, pay all overdue debts and loans ==', and buy more clothes and baju kurung for my classes because I ALWAYS GOT NOTHING TO WEAR. Pergh ayat bajet giler. Heh.

Anyhow, a hangout with my girls is a must! Even for a short one. :D So we've planned to go out this Thursday WEEHEE. Im really sorry I cant make it on Wednesday, girls. I know I've ruined everyone's plan, but I've got no choice. :'( SORRY SORRY SORRY, LETS SING SUPER JUNIOR SORRY SORRY. Haha ok annoying. ;p

There are a lot more to tell, but I'll leave it for the next post. Im just plain lazy for the moment, hehe. ;p And oh, those lovely shukudais are waiting, still untouched, fresh from the moment sensei gave me. ==' Lets do it now, shall we? :D Oh maybe after this short nap. ;p

Till then, bye. ♥ ;)

rush rush rushhhh

2010-07-10T07:32:00.006+08:00

Almost 2 months straight without internet, I really should give my self a big clap! Clapclapclap to Farhana! :D Lol.

Nothing new happened here. But things had been HECTIC. I've gotta rush here and there all the time, hurrying to do this and that now, needs to be there by the next minute. And according to senpai, if you are in IBT, life will constantly be chaotic for the whole 2 years. *horror* ;O

The lessons are sometimes fun. But the further you go, the more complicated it will be. We are now still at beginner but had started doing essay. And the best part, the essay MUST be around 400-500 charactres! Weee~ :D (note the sarcasm)

Mathematics too had started and the syllabus is very differ from what we learnt at school. The lesson is only once a week but its super fast. -__-' Tapi tak kisahlah asalkan sensei yang ajar mathematics sangat lah comel hikhik. And for Japanese language, so far i had learnt a total of 199 kanji. And there are 2000++ left to learn. Pheww, mati otak lepas 2 tahun. =='

Anyway, I went for Japanese Speech contest last weekend! :D
Memanglah bukan saya yang masuk hehee tapi kami jadi cheergirls! Anyhow out of 3 IBT contestants, 2 of them managed to get to 6! Congrats to the senpais! *proud* :D

Gambar curi dari Facebook. ;p Credits to Azalia. :)
The banners says: Gambatte! in kanji. ;D

And oh oh oh! My birthday last month was a blast! :D
I have a friend a.k.a classmate a.k.a housemate a.k.a roommate here that have the same birthdate as mine! Wooot wooot what an coincidence, kan Yani! :DD

So on my birthday the whole class went to KFC and we had big dinner together! ;D After a whole day with kanji and Japanese yang mengarut tu, THAT really made my day. :'D
Domo arigatou, kawaii tomodachitachi! ♥

And million of thanks to all the wishes, be it thru the phone or facebook. God bless! :'D

There are alot more to say but now im pinjaming my senpai's lappy sambil curi Wi-Fi kedai mamak depan TEEHEE. Lagipun nak pegi masak breakfast sebab perut pun dah start menyanyi merdu. Oh please behave, tummy! :p

Till next post,
Bye. ♥ :)

ps: Kenapa tak boleh tukar font ni? GRRR =,='

masak? bring it on!

2010-06-05T17:59:00.008+08:00

What will you do on a Friday night, when the class is over, the next day is holiday, you are in extreme hunger and there are no senpai around to prepare yummylicious dinner for you as they are currently on 1-week break? Plus, you have a bunch of crazy friends eager for another crazy sleepover party?

Well for us, WE COOKED! :D

HEHE kenapa? Tak percaya?
Here's the proof! Tadaaaaaaa ;D

Tangan semua orang bajet konon-konon menyumbang pada masakan tu. Padahal saya sorang je kot yang masak.
Haha ok tipu sangat SAYA masak semua. ;p

We cooked 3 dishes tau. *nada bangga* Ada sambal udang, ayam gorang kunyit, and sayur kapcai! And guess what? It was our first attempt, but hell yeah it turned out REAL GREAT! Eh kenapa rasa macam terpuji diri sendiri? Teehee ;p

Tapi malam tu pukul 11 baru makan. ==' Alasan sendiri: Because we kan professional chef, and pros like us give 100% attention to every single details! LOL, nak cover the fact kitorang sebenarnya tak pernah masak. Haha :p. Imagine, chopping onions alone took 3 people to handle. Frying egg alone required another 3 people, only to monitor the progress of THAT EGG on the pan. Yes, we are so skilled like that. ;p

But we really had a blastful nightparty! :D
Now i can tell life here is not so bad afterall. *winkwink ;)

***

Anyway, just so you know, this blog won't be updated as often from now on. Lappy memang sengaja taknak bawak hostel sebab sure sure distracted punya. Kalau online pulak tak boleh 1 jam, mesti sampai 5-6 jam baru cukup. =='
So baik saya tak bawak, cehceh konon-konon nak jadi baik lah ni, belajar je keje. Heh. ;p

So till then peeps, bye. ♥ :)

this is where real life begins.

2010-05-29T20:16:00.004+08:00

After two weeks of college. How was it, Farhana? :)

Well basically it was great! ;D
I got to meet many new people, and at first, I must admit I really feel they are weird. LOL. But I got used to it, and anyway HEY, they are the people whom gonna be with me for the next 2 years. :)

Some of the faces that will greet me everyday for two years. :')
I hope I wont get bored of you. LOL. xD
They really are GREAT classmates! ;D

But the daily routine is somewhat boring. I get up at 6 everyday, had shower and get dressed, and off to school by bus at 8. Arrive there half an hour later, hand in homeworks, and class starts at 8.50.

We have 10 minutes rest every one and a half hour. Lunch break at 1 to 2. Then class starts again until 5.30. Bus comes at 6, reaches home around 7. Shower and dinner, homework time at 9, a little study and revision, and finally bedtime.

THAT. For 5 days a week. No sports, no outdoor activities, no other events that we could look forward to, no whatsoever. Except on several occasion when we walk a lil bit further to that small rows of malay shops to buy dinner, incase our seniors are not cooking for the day. And on Friday when we have 2 and a half hour break for lunch, which allows us to go to Mid which is 10 minutes walking distance from IBT. That's all.

Dont you think it's boring? No, its worse.
This routine bore me to death.

The only thing that we could look forward to is the test, which they thoughtfully held every freaking 2 days. Ha! THAT is something. Because we know we CAN'T fail, no matter how cramp our brain being overstuffed by God knows how many characters and words and phrases everyday. That means we need to revise everyday. No. We MUST revise everyday. No compromise. No excuse.

Mind you, in just 2 weeks, this is just a little tiny mini part of what we learned. And HAVE to memorize.

It sounds easy, but alas, its not. The characters are yes, pretty easy, compared to those kanji in Chinese. But 142 of them to memorize along with their pronunciation and to differentiate between those characters should take longer to master. The problem is, we are actually 3 weeks late from the engineering students in IBT. So we need to catch up, with 3 weeks faster speed. ;O And plus, Im really not good in memorizing. My brain can't register so many new things in so little time. Ohh brain. :s

But sigh not, I will try my best in this. :) I know i can go through this somehow. With the help from my supportive new-found friends and seniors, I will try my bestest. A little late and small brain malfunctioning should never be a let down. You can do this, right Farhana? Insya-Allah! Gambateh kudasai! :D

And thank God there are WEEKENDS! ;D

Friday will officially be my most hyperactive day in the week from now on. Not only I get to go to Mid, but the next two days will be worth waiting. :) We had a game on Saturday morning with the seniors last weekend. I don't know if that is a weekly routine, but at least if not, we can go for a jog, or get muscled up in the gym, or splash the swimming pool or just hit MidValley again on weekends! :D Ohh exciting! Weekends never fail to please me. ;D

And look what I had for this weekend! :D

A wedding of someone-someone's relative in Marriot Hotel, which astonished me, not only by their 9 level height of wedding cake, but also the humongous 5star toilet! xD

Its even more spacey than my house, and smell better too. HOW INSULTING. =='

And we love the big mirror the most! ♥ ;D

I also had a small hangout. A small, but very meaningful one, as I am already missing them like hell! :'D

Hilang rindu! ♥ ;D

Gotta wait for the next semester break for another hangout. :'(
Ohh cant wait! :')

Till then. I will have yet another test this Monday.
Mo ichido dame kudasai yo! >
Which SUPPOSED to mean: No retest please! ><
Eh betul ke Japanese tu? Lantak lah. Hentam jee. Ahaha.

Bye. :)

ta.da.i.ma

2010-05-23T02:20:00.005+08:00

Hello Bloggie! IM HOME! xD

I cant believe I can actually miss my blog (and facebook too ;p). But a week without internet really proved me wrong. xp

HELL YEAH I MISS MY BLOG! xD
(oh did I mention facebook?) ;p

Well my college life has just started. I was extremely nervous on the registration day last Monday. I was worried with so many things. The class, the classmates, the room, the housemates, the seniors, the teachers, the food, the lessons, the facilities, the EVERYTHING. But heck, it turned out well. In fact, its better than the best I could expect! ;D
Alhamdulillah. :)

The class is nice. The classmates are fantastic! The teacher, or we call Sensei here, are VERY kind. We have 4 Senseis (sensies?) so far, and they are all very professional. The only thing is that, because they are too professional, most of them refuse to speak in any language other than Japanese (although some of them actually know). So we were all like ayam and itik, using sign language all the time. LOL. And I can say that the lessons are pretty tough. We were basically forced to learn and MEMORIZE all 71 hiragana characters and around 20 words IN THE FIRST 2 DAYS. ==' CAN YOU ACTUALLY BELIEVE THAT? =='

Then, on last Friday, we had a mini test. But by mini here, I don't mean less-important. Because those who failed, will have to repeat the papers next Monday. And the passing mark is like, 95/100?! Pffft. Well its not so mini after all. :s Fortunately, I passed this time. But just cukup-cukup makan. Fuhh. =='

My name in Japanese! :D
Ha Na.
Which means flower. :')
Oh, please ignore the other meaning. Because Hana means NOSE too.
Eh OPPS, that supposed to be a secret. =='

Well, for the house and room, I couldn't ask for a better! :D
We stay in apartments in Danau Idaman, around 30 minutes distance to Institut Bahasa Teikyo by bus, taking in account the traffic condition that is so so so jam-packed every morning and evening. Every unit in the apartment will accommodate around 5 people, and my housemates are all seniors! ;D They are super kind and caring and cute and loving and helpful and what-can-I-say-more! ;p Lucky to have them as my senpai. ^-^

Now come take a look at my room!
*promoting Danau Idaman. Hehe. ;p*

My table. :)

My bed. *Kindly ignore the messiness. :p*

The RM 19.90 pink alarm clock. =='

Hi! Im the house key! :D

Sad case: this room do not have railing for curtains. YET. =='

The view from my room. Nothing interesting, really.

But not when I saw a playground far down. THAT, is what I call INTERESTING. Hehe. ;p

Ok then, gotta rush. I need to maintain my 11-6 sleeping hour everyday it seems. So this is kinda too late already. Disciplined much now? ;p

Will share more on my life here next time. Bye. :)

p/s: Thinking of the entrance exam EJU which will come in 2 years time, really gives me goosebumps! ><'

with lots of love,

2010-05-16T23:12:00.001+08:00

Dari kecil sampai besar, GURU lah yang mengajar saya. Dari ABC sampai perkataan bombastik macam cakna dan marcapada, dari 123 sampailah karutan f(x) dan sin cos cosec cot, dari nama sayur sampailah bagaimana sayur dihadam dalam badan, dari alif-ba-tha sampailah riwayat semua sahabat baik Nabi. Semuanya cikgu ajar. :')

Walaupun kena tegur kat kelas selalu sebab tak siap homework. Hari-hari kena rotan kat tangan masa sekolah rendah sebab buat-buat lupa bawak buku. Selalu kena soal sebab ponteng banyak hari sangat sampai surat cinta untuk guru jadi bertimbun. Tapi cikgu tetap mengajar saya. Dengan tekun, dengan sabar, dengan ikhlas. :')

Dan kalau tak ada cikgu, tak mungkin saya tahu semua tu. Tak mungkin juga akan rasa pengalaman kena marah semua tu, walaupun kenangan tu tak berapa manis. ;p
Dan mustahil tanpa cikgu, saya akan jadi diri saya sekarang. :')

TERIMA KASIH, CIKGU.
Tanpa cikgu siapalah saya. :')

SELAMAT HARI GURU. :'D
I love you, teachers! ♥ :D

***

And ohh, as promised, pictures to tell a thousand words! ;)
I will try to make the caption as short as possible, as not to bore you to death.
Haha alasan, padahal sebab tengah malas. xD

Day 1

Sempat singgah Kolej Matrikulasi dekat Londang.
And guess what, the place is much nicer than I imagined!
Rasa nak masuk pulak matrix. Aihhhh... T____T'

Ucapan Selamat Datang yang sepatutnya ditujukan pada saya jugak. :')
Tapi last minute tukar, nak buat camne. :'(

We mostly chilled at hotel room the whole day, pastu turun sekejap untuk merasa swimming pool, hehee. ;D

Having fun, Shahira?
Haha dengan swimming suit tak tukar tukar terus main buai.
Adik sapo lah tu. ;p

At the playground. ;)
1 second later:
*BaM!* Ouch dammit! *Smack*
AHAHA xD

Day 2

Baca doa ~~makan~~ sebelum naik Menara Taming Sari sebab gayat. Lame betul. =='

We spotted the Eyes of Malaysia from the tower! ;D

Dad and Mom! :D ♥

Later went to A Famosa, the old historical building that was once the symbol of Malacca. :)
And the place was freaking hot I tell you.
Blame me for the heat.
LOL. xD

Sisters! :D

Shahira was eying a group of boy foreigners.
Ishhh Shahira ni gatal ni, ISHHH. ;p

Time berangan konon-konon jadi hulk tak bertauliah.
Siap expression lagi macamlah menjadi sangat. ;p

And on the way back, we found this,
Freak out not, they are really nice to play with. Trust me.
Ahahaha. xD
Jaga-jaga siapa yang jadi mangsa saya lepas ni, hehe. ;p

Anyway, saya daftar dekat Institut Bahasa Teikyo besok. In less than 12 hours, I won't be around anymore. :(
Life there would might be pretty tough with homesick, roomsick, familysick, friendsick. =='
It will be suffering at some point. But for 2 years straight, I just gotta go through it .
Just harap semuanya berjalan lancar, amin. :)

Ok lah, nak pack barang yang kalau boleh nak bawak satu rumah. Hahah lame. Bye. ;)

trippy trip

2010-05-10T23:25:00.009+08:00

Went for a trip to Melaka for two days. We've booked an apartment from Sunday kononnya for ease when registering in Matriculation, supposedly today. But since I've gotta go to IBT now, abah said;

'takpe lah, pergi je. Boleh jalan-jalan kat Melaka. :)'

Yay! :D
Kiranya sambut Mother's Day kat Melaka lah ni, hee. ;)

We really had fun! But being a lazymazy me, I'll leave the story-telling to the photos again this time. Haha dasar pemalas. ;p Will upload them as soon as possible. :)

And yeah, I know this is kinda late. But still,

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MAK!! :D

Mom, you’ve always been the best,
A better mom than all the rest;
I’m thankful for all the things you do,
I’m glad my mom is extra special you!

I LOVE YOU, MOM! ♥ :'D

I've actually bought something for her, just a small, cheap one only. =.=' But hey, this lovely 18 years old daughter is currently a proud JOBLESS, so it's something forgivable, no? It's the thought that counts! :D Haha alasan panjang.
Well at least I just hope she will like it. I will hand it to her as a little surprise tomorrow, because I forgot to bring it along to Melaka to present it during celebration. Pelupa sungguh. ==' So tomorrow it is, then. ;)

So peeps, just before I go, I hope you'll enjoy this short moving and poignant story of a Mother and her son. :')

Mothers' love is the greatest and unbeatable indeed. :')
Click for expansion.

Gotta go. Will post more on trip to Melaka later, if time permit. Bye. ;)

as we go on, we remember. ♥

2010-05-09T01:37:00.002+08:00

Note: This is a seriously emolame post. Don't read if you are not ready.

Everyone is leaving, it seems. To matriculation, to form 6, to colleges and universities. You will never believe how drastic I feel on these changes.

Two years back, or two months back even, I’ve never thought it will be this sudden. I’ve always thought time can wait; we have all the time in the world. We could use it all. Just endeavour everything from even the slightest detail. We rejoiced every moment of ours, the F.U.N of it, and how simply it went by past us.

Yes true, time flies fast.

Back then, we were one. We laughed, we jokes, we cried, we shared. We stick together, we were unseparatable. We went through those times together, we backed each other up. We shared private jokes, we gossiped on every possible victim. We knows each other’s secrets, we made promises to be kept. We had shoulders to cry on; we cheered each other’s company. Now that everyone is going their own way, I wonder, will it all remain the same?

Yes true, life goes on.

You will meet a new bunch of people in your life, you will experience something completely different from what we had through, and you will learn something new. Those people will leave another mark in your life path; those new moments will be kept as a memory of another phase in your life. It’s a brand new life you are heading now, that could change us, could transform us, and could even cross someone out of your memory, or could replaces the old ones.

Yes true, memories last a lifetime.

Two hours back, I was thinking they won’t go this soon, still. Though I know I was lying to myself, but I’d assume that they are not, because knowing that they are leaving will surely make me emo. I thought by doing that I’m doing strong. I thought by ignoring the fact, I will appear tougher. But being a loser as I am, I finally accept that it’s something I can’t escape anymore. And another depressing fact is that I know I’m gonna miss them, a lot more than they thought I will.

Yes true, being emo is VERY not cool. ==’

So here I am, with this Mother’s Day thingy going on, with closest friends leaving one-by-one, with acknowledgment that I'm gonna leave soon as well, and with this overdue PMS that never end (ok its not PMS then), I hereby announce that I’m in complete emo-ness. How COOL is that? ==’ And the reason I am being here is to make a proper goodbye, as I know I’m not strong enough to do it physically, as it will tear me up. ==’ So here it is,

GOOD BYE, KAWAN. TAKE A GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF, ALL RIGHT? I REALLY HAD FUN BEING AROUND ALL OF YOU. REALLY. PLEASE DON’T FORGET ME, AND REMEMBER, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FRIEND. :')

Shoot. Now I can feel how emo I am. =='
Eughh EMO EMO GO AWAY, ~~COME BACK ANOTHER DAY~~ NOW GET OUT OF MY WAY! >:p

Bye. :)

Shōgeki-teki na nyūsu

2010-05-08T18:21:00.006+08:00

Faham maksud tajuk ni? Saya pun tak faham. ;p
Tapi yang saya tahu, saya taip 'shocking news' dalam Google Translate, and jampi serapah kat atas ni pun keluar. Jadi anggap sajalah jampi yang bunyi macam 'teka-teki nak menyusu' ni maksudnya 'shoking news' ye. xD

Anyway, I went out to The Mines again, with Farhana Hamid this time! :D Macam lah takde tempat lain nak pergi. Hee ;p

Tapi malangnya takde pictures untuk tell a thousand words. :(
Sebab ada 1 je yang diambil di dalam toilet (toilet lagi ==') and muka pulak semua toya je.
Maybe sebab ambil dalam toilet so jadi toya sebab loya. And maybe jugak sebab camera tu masalah, sebab dia ambil masa sikit nak snap. Bila kitorang dah bersedia and senyum lama lebih kurang dalam 2 or 3 minit baru nak snap, maka senyuman pun jadi lebih kambing dari kambing. =='

Di kesempatan itu *eceh*, sempat juga kitorang buat teori bahawa bila kita senyum untuk kamera lama sangat, otot pipi akan melurut dan senyuman nampak tak menawan berbanding kalau senyum secara natural. Oleh itu lebih baik saya tak letak senyuman tak menawan macam kambing tu dalam ni. See, aint I kind for saving you from the misery? LOL. xD
Eh tengok tu melalut pasal senyuman dah ambil satu perenggan.

Baiklah, lepas masing-masing dah puas hati dengan teori rekaan sendiri tu, we headed off to the cinema! :D

REGRETTABLY, TGV in The Mines doesn't offer much variety of choices. We wanted to watch Nightmare on the Elms Street, but sadly its not available. :( Instead, only IP Man II, Iron Man II, Crazies, Belukar and a couple more je ada.
Finally we picked Ice Kacang Puppy Love, a Mandarin movie! :D Never heard of it? Me too! Haha, maybe sebab Im not really into chinese movies so far. Apatah lagi local made macam ni. Tak tahu pun wujud. =='
But we decided to give it a try anyway, mana tahu best. And we weren't wrong! :D

;)

Its was really not bad, with strong messages and conflicts that we can relate to our daily life, along with sprinkles of comedy and romance which make it a memorable one. :)
But I suggest you to just wait for the screening on tv, (hope will be out soon) because I usually prefer to watch only action or fantasy movies in cinema. Barulah gempak kan? xp
But even so, this movie worth it indeed! :D

So overall, the Farhana&Farhana outing was fun! xD
Eheh poyo je semua outing nak fun. ;p

***

By the way, guess what exactly the 'shōgeki-teki na nyūsu' or the shoking news refers to?
Well, the news is this,

No, that's not my next target location to find a lengzhai, ok? :p

That is where I will be heading from now on. InsyAllah. :)
For the next two years, I'll have to struggle my heart out, counting days and sacrificing every seconds. It takes longer time, I know. But with enough determination and efforts, I know I could make it too. I pray hard to Allah, and for all people to have faith in me. Only with His will, I know nothing is impossible. :)

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for everything. :')

AND untuk kawan-kawan yang pergi matrix Isnin ni, jangan lupakan kita tau. :'(
Kena selalu message, selalu jumpa kat facebook, selalu jumpa kat ym tau.
And jangan lupa nama kita, jangan lupa muka kita, and jangan lupa hutang-hutang kita pada awak tau. Haha. ;p
Oklah taknak panjang cakap pasal ni. Dah cukup emo haritu masa nak berpisah lepas outing, nanti jadi surat pulak sini sambil tersedu-sedu. Hehee. ;p
Nanti cuti sem kita jumpa sama-sama ye? Ini MESTI, ok? :D

Ok nak pack barang. Byee ♥ :)

bffs time out

2010-05-05T23:48:00.009+08:00

Went for two hangouts! :D Well, it was fun fun fun! :D

I in utmost lazy mood for a long grandmother story right now, but i believe that pictures can speak a thousand words! So why not let them do the telling? ;)
Lets start with 4th May 2010. :)

Early birds. ;)

Lembab birds. ==' *including Najihah. ;p

Meet my longlost water bottle, discovered safe and sound a week later. Biggest thanks and appreciation to Fion Liew! ♥ ;D

Had lunch at Yellow Corner kegemaran ramai. :D

Samila thinking of U*** tuuuuuut. Ngehehe xD

Went round the town like mad people after lunch. Bought many so-called-vital things for matriculation *although everybody knows that for-matriculation is actually just an excuse for us to shop unnecessary things! Hehe ;p

Najihah's new PINKY hp cover! :D
Rasanya saya dapat penyakit pink dari beliau ke? ;p

Najihah with her unique cutie smile! :D

Fion trying to look retarded. And well, IT WORKED. xD

Samila in an attempt to smile like Najihah. But it didn't work. ==' LOL xD

Didn't sempat have a snap with Umairah, because she went back quite early. :( Well i think it means we must meet up again next time, Umai! ;D

***

Move on to 5th May 2010. ;)

Had a fabulous fun time at The Mines with Adiba! :D
Went for a movie, Iron Man II. As a quick review, it was not bad for me. But its quite disappointing at the ending for me. Because I love a bit of twists at the end, with the biggest impact compared to other encounters while fighting, in action movies especially. Wait, does my statement make sense to you? It sounds twisted too LOL. Ahh nevermind, just forget it. :p
Anyway, we had a fun time! ;D

We did shopping-dash too! Hopping from a shop to another, eying all items with ON SALE on it. xD Adiba will find the right shoes to match with her UIA Asasi requirements, while I go around the shop TRYING OUT EVERY HEELS. =='
Low self-esteem for being a shortie much? LOL ;p

Toilet is our fav spot so far. xD

See what i mean? ;)

And STARBUCKS is our fav drink spot! ♥ :D

Her only choice of drink of all time. ;D

♥ :D

Ahh, I guess I will have to stop right here for now. :) My eyes need some rest. =='
Till then, bye. ;)

one little innocent crap

2010-05-04T08:29:00.002+08:00

You are a grown-up, why can't you think like one? Why expect me to be perfect when I've done my best to be a good one all this while. I could have been worse, but for your sake, for I know what good it had on you, I didn't choose that path. YET. I've had enough of these craps. Stop pushing me further, or I'll go further as well, pretty beyond your expectation too, but just another way round. I'm not trying to be rude, but YOU made it this way.

I hope I've made myself clear enough.

You are a paranoid.

And now I'm a loser for having this written here just to make a point.

5-FIVE-KHAMSAH

2010-05-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

Kak Abbie tag saya! Yay! ;D
Haha jakun. xD

Ok ini dia. Jeng jeng jeng..

***

Syarat2 nye ialah:

- Copy award ni macam dapat Grammy Award. :O *ok bangga kejap. Ehehe

- Bagitahu siapa dan link blog pemberi award ni. --> Kak Abbie! :D

- Tajuk post mesti ada perkataan 5-FIVE-KHAMSAH. *ohkayy? tapi apa maksud dia sebenarnya? ==’

Then kena jawab 10 soalan :)

1) 5 nama samaran kamu:

- Farhana
- Ana
- Fanarifah
- ~~Banana~~ =='
- Jessica Alba. Sila jealous sekarang, haha. ;D

2) 5 tarikh paling penting dalam hidup kamu:

- 16 Jun (cepat teka hari apa tu. hee ;p)
- 17 Oktober > Abah
- 3 November > Emak
- 12 March > Along
- 16 July > Shahira

Banyak lagi, tapi kang penuh setahun punye tarikh kat sini. ;p

3) 5 perkara kamu buat semalam:

- Bangun
- Makan
- Tv
- Online
- Tidur
- Tidur
- Tidur
- Tidur
- Tidur

Haaa kan dah terlebih.

4) 5 perkara yang buat kamu gembira:

- Bangun
- Makan
- Tv
- Online
- Tidur
- Tidur
- Tidur
- Tidur
- Tidur

Eh macam yang saya buat hari-hari. Tapi apsal tak gumbira pun? =='

5) 5 drama/ filem kegemaran kamu:

- Transformer 1 & 2
- Harry Potter movies
- Twilight & New Moon
- Avatar
- All NatGeo & History channel shows *eceh

Ok tipu sangat. Saya lebih prefer ini,

- Atashinci kepala besar
- ShinChan yang corrupted tu
- Doraemon bersama poket penuh karutannya
- Spongebob si span kuning
- Wonder Pets dan lagu opera mereka

6) 5 hobi kamu:

- Travel and photography
- Reading, esp ~~romance novel~~ NEWSPAPER
- Sketching, or plainly saying, doodling. MY FAV ♥ ;p
- Eating sleeping on9 eating sleeping on9
- Pole dancing

7) 5 orang yang kamu suka/sayang:

- Me
- Me
- Me
- FAMILY! ♥
- FRIENDS! ♥

Saya pentingkan diri kan? Huahaha.

8) 5 tempat percutian idaman kamu:

- ~~Las Vegas~~
- Miami
- Italy/ Paris
- New Zealand/Aussie
- Korea/ Japan

9) 5 sebab kamu jawab soklan ni:

- Saya boring
- Saya suka tagging tagging :D
- Kak Abbie baik hati :D
- Saya rasa lapar
- Saya rasa nak makan burger

10) 5 orang yang kamu nak tag :

- Fion the innocent-looking corrupted sifu xD
- Dyba bff glamourous yang fabulous :D
- NAZATUL. Taknak jugak panggil Simaa hehe ==’
- Semua dalam list belah kanan ni haa. Cepat check nama kamu ade ke tak. ;D
- YOU. ;)

Done! Hee.. Best gak kan tagging tagging nih, haha xD
Special thanks to Kak Abbie! Weee~ I loike! :D

Ok dah, saya nak pergi cari burger sekarang bye. ;)

rasa malas nak update, tapi rasa nak update.

2010-04-29T00:45:00.002+08:00

Statement di atas memang annoying sama macam bila pet dalam PetVille tak habis-habis ketuk screen bagai nak pecah konon-konon seek attention. Padahal baru tinggal 10 minit. Menyampah aku, KAU INGAT KAU CUTE SANGAT MACAM JUSTIN BIEBERBLAST? Sorry Petville, muka cute awak yang saya cipta sendiri dengan mata bulat macam lembu tu semakin membuahkan rasa iritasi dan gatal-gatal tangan sampai terpaksa menekan butang X tab bila awak ketuk cermin kaca depan saya ni macamtu. Cukup lah ye. Terima kasih, tapi saya dah meluat. Amat.
AMAT, bukan ahmad ok. =='

Dan dengan alasan tajuk post yang tertera di atas juga, entri ini takkan menjadi panjang. Tangan penat, otak beku, mata layu. Katil lah penawar yang satu. Eheh pantun lagi, sure Umai kembang buat kali kedua dalam blog ni. ;p

Anyway, tadi pergi sekolah ~~High School untuk mencari lengzhai~~ Convent untuk jumpa pengetua. Pergi pagi giler, pukul 9. Pastu rupanya ~~lengzhai~~ pengetua pukul 5 petang baru ada. Ciisss, benda annoying lagi hari ini. =='

Baik, mari skip part saya tawaf Kajang bersama Fion untuk tujuan mengarut seperti MEMBELI AISKRIM MCD, MENSURVEY PAYUNG DAN MENCARI PADLOCK SERTA MENGRUSHING UNTUK DATING FION BERSAMA si TEEEET TU =='. Eh kenapa rasa macam dah terbagitahu semua benda? Tak kisahlah, apa-apa pun reason post ni and satu-satunya benda yang saya nak bagitahu hanyalah,

SAYA BARU TERINGAT SEKARANG DAH NAK DEKAT HARI IBU.
And duit saya dah habis dah buat beli barang untuk matrix yang tak-penting-pun-tapi-kata-hati-terlalu-mendesak macam jam loceng PINK RM19.90 tu. x_x

Brilliant. Just brilliant.

So sekarang saya kena hutang along LAGI,
untuk beli..err..ok saya belum decide lagi. =='

Nantilah baru fikir. Katil terasa lebih penting sekarang.
Ok lah tata please please please jangan nakal-nakal ye. *tibetibe*
Buang tebiat. Ayat tak waras. Till then, nites people. :)

p/s: Pokok dalam farmville dah boleh harvest dengan hanya satu click. Bagus, saya salute. Kemajuan yang amat proaktif. Lepas ni sila beri kesetiaan tak berbelah bagi terhadap farmville, ok Farhana? ;)

All hail to the P.hail

2010-04-24T11:56:00.001+08:00

KANDAS

Menurut Kamus Dewan Edisi ke-3, kandas bermaksud;

1) Tidak berjaya, atau dengan kata lain, GAGAL.
2) Terlanggar sesuatu, tidak dapat bergerak lagi, tersekat atau dengan kata lain, juga GAGAL.

Baik, mari kita sambung ye murid-murid. Buka buku latihan muka surat 98,789,634 dan sila tidur sekarang. *tibe-tibe*

Ok dah, stop berangan jadi cikgu tak bertauliah. Saya harap dengan mukadimah tadi semua sudah maklum dengan berita duka yang bakal disampaikan. Kalau tanak tulis terang-terang kat sini boleh? :( Saya pemalu orangnya, nak sampaikan berita yang menghiris jiwa macamni memang tak sanggup. *tibe-tibe lagi*

Oh banyaknya melalut. Ni mesti pasal dah khatam Kamus Dewan tadi ni. Tengok, sekarang dah terlalu banyak vocab dalam otak nak keluarkan. Hehe dasar penipu padahal kamus tu dah berkulat. Ok lah, sekarang saya straight to the point ye?

Ehem. Sebenarnya macamni,

Jauh rupanya point dia.

Owh nak dekat dah.

Haaa.

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa.

I PHAILED. SAYA GAGAL.

Dalam test JPJ bahagian jalanraya semalam.

Huwaaaaaaaaaaa sobssobs. T.....T'

And tahukan anda alasan munasabah yang diberi oleh pakcik yang bajet hensem dengan specs hitam tu apa? (Tiru gaya pengacara ~~licik~~ cilik segmen Tahukan Anda dalam Astro TVIQ yang tak pernah bukak tu.)

Saya TIDAK MEMBERI KEUTAMAAN KEPADA KENDERAAN LAIN.

LIKE FTW????! =____='

Masa bahagian2 yang bukit, parking and 3 pointer tu semua ok dah. Kira dah lepas satu beban tanggungan di pundak diri ini. *Haha ayat SPM power tak boleh blah ;p. Tapi malangnya, adeke patut masa dekat T-junction tu, tiba-tiba pakcik bajet tu kata ‘eh kamu, kereta tu ada kenapa masuk?’ padahal kereta dari kanan tu tengah selowwwww macam baby kura-kura sebab tengah dekat bumper and bumper tu jaraknya macam 10.86754790875 meter lagi dari junction tu. APA TUJUAN BUMPER TU KALAU KERETA DAH SLOW TAPI KITA STILL KENA TUNGGU KERETA TU LEPAS BARU BOLEH MASUK? >;(

Sighh. T.T'

And walaupun dah lalui sesi merayu dalam kereta, pakcik kacamata hitam still kata TAK. T.....T’ And lalu saya terpaksa terima hakikat hakiki tersebut dengan hati yang berkecamuk. Eh eh tak hakiki. Jangan hakiki. Lepas ni MESTI BOLEH! :D *bersemangat sambil angkat obor tibe-tibe*

Sighh. T.T'

Anyway sebenarnya saya takde lah rasa down sangat pun pasal benda ni. Sebab last entry dah kata kalau fail memang perkara biasa. Semalam pun group kepoh kitorang cuma 2 orang yang berjaya. Yang lain banyak kantoi kat junction saya tulah (chewah junction SAYA), tapi semua sebab makan jalan. Padahal ada sorang tu cuma bumper je kot atas line, pun uncle JPJ dah jerit U PHAILLLLL! macam annoying giler. Haha ok dia takde lah kata gitu. Exaggerate much. ;p

Tapi ada juga yang lulus walaupun dah banyak gak salah. Macam anak raja dilayan siap ajar dalam kereta bila nak stop bila nak tukar gear bagai. Dia sendiri yang cerita ok. ;(

And ada sorang pegawai JPJ yang perempuan ni pulak kalau boleh semua orang nak solat hajat 10 hari 10 malam taknak dapat kat dia. Dahlah muka garang macam singa PMS setahun, pastu tiap kali kereta test tu balik ke IMKEDA, mesti dia yang drive, MEANS DIA TAK PERNAH SEKALIPUN BAGI ORANG PASS. Cuma ada one chinese girl je petang tu alih-alih dia berjaya memecahkan rekod menjadi orang pertama yang pass dengan makcik singa. Tapi lepas tu semua fail balik. ==' Memang jadi gosip antarabangsa semua kat situ cakap kehebatan girl tu. Agak-agak macam mana dia jadi hebat ye? Aihhh musykil musykil, gua amat musykil. -.-

Hmm so sekarang ni terpaksa lah tunggu lama lagi untuk retest. Dahlah nak masuk matrix dah, kena tunggu cuti semester nanti kot baru boleh curi masa. Kat matrix boleh sedap-sedap ambil cuti ke? Tak kot. Sighhh. Tak dapat pergi drift. =='

Ohh yeah cakap pasal matrix, SAYA DAPAT MATRIX MELAKA! :D
YAY! :DD

Setakat ni yang sama dengan saya Afina dengan Nazeerah. Yang tak puas hati kenapa ramai dapat Negeri Sembilan?? Ish ish tak aci. Pastu ramai kata matrix Melaka lama, so buruk. Hish ni yang dah seram ni. Takot. ;( Takpelah asal dapat tidur, makan dan tidur lagi cukup lah. HEEE. xD

Ok nak ~~tidur~~ nak buat list barang matrix kena beli bye. :)

i ♥ E

2010-04-22T21:20:00.007+08:00

Happy Earth Day, people! :D

Lend our big mommy a hand, please? ;)

She won't ask for much, just a little support will do. :)
A small act of recycling, of using environmentally-friendly products, and of supporting a day without plastic bags in a week is appreciated much. And by taking part in this eventful day of course. Hee. ;3

And she will give a far more bigger gift in return, A GREENER AND MORE PROMISING FUTURE. *winkwink* ;)

Trust me it will worth it :D
So save our Earth people! ;D
Before its too late. *suara seram, hehe ;p*

***

Anyway, tomorrow will be my JPJ driving test! *panic* ;O
I really hope i will do it well. *sigh* Many people passed only after a few trials, (no offence to that octopy's owner ;p) so for me, failing in this wont be a real big deal. :s
But i just hope i wont fail MISERABLY. Pffft. =='

Note to JPJ people:
Oh ~~uncle~~ ABANG, pleaaaase let me pass. I promise i wont do drift on the road. *puppy eyes TEEHEE*
Ok tipu. I promise i wont do drift WITH U on the road. Kat belakang lain cerita. HEHE. ;p

Till then, i nida get a good loooong sleep. Haha alasan tak boleh blah. ;p
Please pray for me ya. :)
Thanks alot xoxo. ;)

p/s: Kalau saya lulus, saya bawak semua drift sama-sama okay? JANJI TAK TIPU.*pinky promise* Ngehehehe. xD

hadiah. :D

2010-04-12T15:47:00.004+08:00

Embrace the beauty of today from the moment that you wake,
For every dream you cherish is there for you to take,
And the world outside is waiting for the magic that you'll make.
- K. Stafford

***

Sometimes life can be exhausting.
Whining to win, struggling to live.
Things happen, and we fell on our knees.
Lost in direction, a battle to keep up the beat.

So once in a while, why don't we unwind? :)

Sit back, chillax.
Give yourself a short break.
Indulge yourself in a little treat.
A small piece of chocolate perhaps? :)

Nah ini ada hadiah, untuk kamu. :)
Ye kamu, kamu semua.
Click SINI, and enjoy, alright? :)

Saya ikhlas bagi tau.
Kalau rasa saya tak ikhlas jangan click. Saya bagi untuk orang yang nak je. :)

Ok tata. ♥

p/s: Yeye je taip, padahal quote K.Stafford curi dari card birthday abah untuk mak last year. Ghehehe ;p

i need a panic button,

2010-04-08T15:27:00.002+08:00

that can stop the time.

So that i can take a short breath, calm myself down and think wisely before proceeding in the interview.

Because i can swear i was mumbling and fumbling throughout the session.

DARN. :(

I've been expecting a more common general questions, from what i've heard and noticed; H1N1, 1Malaysia concept, global warming et cetera are what they usually ask.
So that are the topics that i've been preparing.

But this is what i got;

I went in with just another girl. Only 2 person per session this time, a special case where it should be 5 person/session, because its already noon and we were the last group for panel 12. =='

The guy before me went ALONE, a more extraordinary and worse case because me and my friend, Jolene were not there yet. ;p Maybe the interviewer did not want to waste anymore time. I pity him, really. He looks really messed up when he went out, saying 'banyaknya mereka tanya T.T' while sweeping his sweaty face haha. Everyone there was practically laughing at him and his reaction. xD

Next, it was our turn.

There were 3 interviewer as usual.

First, it was the common introduce-your-self, family background, what course and what country.

I made it quite fine. But they questioned whether Perbadanan Putrajaya, where my dad works, is considered government or not. ==' And i answered yes, because err because its memang under kerajaan. ;p

Next question,

Had u made any research on the difference of SUBJECTS in international relation between USA and here in Malaysia?

Mumble about their more established education system. But finally gave up, admitting that i did not do any deeper research on THE SUBJECTS. How do i know aite? :(

Had u read any books related to international relation? Tell us what that book is about?

Mumbled on Sophie's World and The Next 100 Years, which my dad happened to give me just a few weeks ago. Fuhh at least i got some points on that. =='

And here comes the hardest one.

What do u know about the relationship between the United States and Islamic countries?

Blaaaah. I was totally blank. I thought hard enough that i was lost in my own thinking, trying to figure out the best word to describe whatever i know about this issue. I cramped everything out; the invasion of the US forces, the intention to take over the oil and petroleum market, the claim that the Muslims are terrorist etc. I seriously dunno. I tried to say that by studying in the USA, we can try to see on how they see Islam from their eyes and try to correct their perspective. But i cant find the word 'correct'. How fantastic was that. T.T
So I was practically SPEECHLESS. Yes, thanks to brilliant me.

Whose perspective do u mean? *with that are-u-on-their-side? look*

I still cant find the word 'CORRECT' *damnit*, so i mumbled saying that we can try to change how they see us. (??) And that Islam is not about terrorism at all. Aihh.

How do u think u can do that?

I said that i might not be able to do that alone, but perhaps by going to US, we can mix with them, as well as team up with the muslim community in that country. In this way, it might help a little and make some difference.

Sounds cliche i know. =='
But i cant come out with better ideas. Only after the interview was done, and i told my dad, that he told me that i can try to say like; we can help by forming a stronger diplomatic relationship with the Islamic countries etc. Why didn't i think of that? T__T'

Well it was a catastrophe.

But, incredibly, i made it out alive.

FUHH. =='

My friend Jolene who's taking engineering, on the other hand, did not being asked so many questions, only some common why-engineering. But she is also been attacked because she wears a skirt, which unfortunately seems short and unsuitable for them. Pity her. :(
For me its not that short anyway. Just a bit above-knee level. But, well. ;(
Ohh, and her look reminds me alot of Florence! Aww i think i miss my classmates already. :(

So basically its over, and nothing can be done to change it otherwise. T.T*
I don't put so much hope in this after all. Out of 8000++, only a few lucky 1500 get accepted. Nahh, its less than 20%. ==' Aihh jangan berangan ler. :(

OK till then la, tata. :)

p/s: if the panic button does exist, trust me i'll smash it a thousand times over that it'll be a spoiled disfigured button by now. xD

sometimes we just don't expect.

2010-04-05T16:25:00.005+08:00

But we can't help it when people do.

I've now saw. I've now heard. I've now witnessed.

And I've now hate it when people expect more.

Why cant i just decide for myself, for my sake.

Why insist on what im against of?

And what's more painful is when u pull THAT face.

Making me feel as if i am to blame.

Showing as if im too shallow for not making the right choice.

I know what u demands on.

I know in one way, its something worth to reason.

But what i see is what lies beneath.

And regrettably I've figured out its the other way round altogether.

I want to make everything clear.

I'm doing what's the best for me.

Or rather what i think the best for me.

Even if its not a completely right one, there is where im heading to now.

But then again, at some point i actually do appreciate it.

So, thanks to u, really.

We will never know.

Hopefully you can just get a hint.

I was just hoping that you could understand me more. :)

dream wedding.

2010-04-04T23:05:00.019+08:00

Went back kampung at Majidee, JB on 2nd of April for kak Nadia's wedding. :)

AND OMG JUMPA ARASH LAGI! :D

How on earth can someone be as cute as this angel u tell me? HE IS THE ONE. ♥ ;)

Gosh gosh gosh. Arash, kenapa buat muka pun still kiutmiut? Eiish nak gigit boleh? xD

Haha muka stim. But still his cuteness is irresistible! xD

Damnit his smile makes me flyyyyy. ;D

MY FAV PIC OF ARASH.
GOSH HE IS OFFICIALLY MY SWEETHEART! ♥ ;D

Oh tak lupe, met Daniya petang tu! :D
Tapi sekejap je jumpa. TSK tak sempat tengok dia senyum. T__T

The night before the wedding, i mostly just look around and HECK! the pelamin was so beautiful that i fell in love instantly the moment i saw it. SERIOUS. :D

THE PRETTIEST PELAMIN! :D

Yeah sadly it doesn't look THAT nice in the picture. But trust me, it looks super lovely when u see it with your own eyes. ;D

♥ The wedding. ♥

What can i say, maroon & white are perfect match! :D

Pretty kan? ♥

♥

Before relatives and friends flood in. ;p

The theme was pink or purple, jadi pengapit pun pakai biru + merah, so jadilah purple! Hee comel je. ;)

Eh eh. Oii pengantin jeling apa tu. Bwahaha xD

Cheh cheh. Ini saat abah selaku pakcik pengantin sedang merenjis mawar. Teehee! ;p

The foods! :D *salivate*

Bubur kacang. Sedap tau! :D
Credits to Mak Ani. ;)

Aww i love the cake. ;D

The goodies. ;)

Saudara belah mak pun datang. :)
Mira, Nisak, Nabila, Me. :D
Tapi kenapa semua complot pakai tudung hitam ni? Saya je tak. Ish tak aci. =='

And haritu saya jadi kendarat terjun! :D
Yeay! ;D Hahah.
Tak expect pun. Tiba-tiba kena suruh, so buat je lah. Hee. Better lah kan dari duduk tengok orang makan pastu rasa nak makan lagi. =='
I sound like such a big eater, no? T__T'

Pewwit Nabila jaga air. xD

Alololoh malu-malu kucing lak kau Alisyah. xD
Tapi bubur tu laku kan KITA jaga? *Heheh puji diri sendiri ;p*

Fuiyo ~~kuli~~ orang kuat.

Budak kecil memang suka berangan ke?
Lagi-lagi yang annoying kaler merah tu. =='
Poyo seyh. ;p
*padahal jealous tak sempat rasa pelamin. Ngeehehe*

♥
Selamat Pengantin Baru, Abang Zul & Kak Nadia! :D
Moga berkekalan and bahagia selalu. ;)

And oh, later that evening something terrible and unexpected happened. :(
Mak Wa, ibu pengantin was admitted in CCU for a sudden almost-heartattack, probably of being too tired and restless for two weeks in a row.
Ya Allah kesian Mak Wa. :'(
Although she is now stable and already allowed to go back home, but she still needs more rest. Lets pray that she will get well soon. :')

Ahh not forgetting a lovely surprise i got from Abang Sani, Kak As and their two kids, Awin & Qaishy! :DDDDD

Awwww i love it love it love it! ♥
Terima kasih banyak-banyak Abg Sani & Kak As! Susah je. :')
Cepat-cepat datang kajang lagi! :D
Kak Ana nak bagi untuk Qaisyh and Awin pulak! Hehee ;D

Ok till then, tata. ;D

Mukabuku Malaysia.

2010-04-01T13:12:00.007+08:00

Tau tak Facebook?

Noob sangat lah kalau tak tau.

To me, i've actually grown bored towards Facebook.

Why?

Because Facebook nowadays to me is just a dump area for a bunch of shitty groups and pages. LOL.
Its when u see a page that says random fact about u than u'll be like 'ohh thats so me' OR 'ahh story of my life' and instantly u join/become a fan and next, others will say 'whoaa i thought im the only one!' and join too. ;p
At first, it was pretty fun, to see many amusing groups being created by FB-er one after another. But it actually gets annoying by time. =='

AND, Facebook also had becoma a site which bear countless games and app and quizzes. Initially, you might want to try a hand. But then you get addicted, just like me. And the next thing you know, you've been flooding not only your own wall, but others as well with requests and achievements and level ups and badges and who-see-your-profile-the-most and your-next-kiss-is-THEMONKEYH. Don't get offended, i joined all those daily rants too. ;p
Now i have no freaking idea how to stay away from the those games and app. TSK. =='

But are you bored of these already?

Worry not, we now have *drum rolls*

*drum rolls*

*drum rolls*

*drum rolls*

*drum rolls*

*drum rolls*

MUKABUKU!!!!!

Tadaaaaaa :p
LMAO.

Mukabuku. As the title suggests, is a Malaysian version of Facebook.
Yup, now mukabuku is not a silly direct translation of Facebook, but is actually a real site which thousands of people joining already! :D

NOT.

Not thousands, yet.
Currently just 245 freaking bored people joined. xD

Mukabuku, is actually just another facebook-alike site which hold hope to be like Facebook one day. Idk. But i think thats the point. =='

This is what it says on the home page,

Mukabuku membantu anda menghubungkan dan berkongsi cerita kepada seluruh Satu Malaysia.

So the point is probably to unite all Malaysian in one site, just like Facebook.
Yeke? Ntah.

But i joined anyway. ;p Simply to have a taste of Malaysian so-called-Facebook.
Like i said, we are freaking bored people. xD

My profile. :)

The wall. :)

Whats ridiculously funny about this wall is that they show every single activities of EVERY MUKABUKU MEMBER. Not only the friends that i've added. =='

I haven't add or confirm anyone as friend yet in fact. =='

Perhaps they don't have much member for the time being, so they just use what they have. o.O

Any coming requests will be shown here. *in RED.*

I currently have 4 friend request from i-dont-know-who. x__x
But they sure are some freaking bored people just like me. ;p

One special thing about Mukabuku is that you can change your profile layout/background using CSS codes. And become like this,

Yup you're right, you can put on glitters and graphics and animated cursor just like you did in
MySpace and Friendster around 3 years back, which gives my a creepy feeling when i remembered how we the teenage kids used to spend all day trying out new background just to stand out in the crowd. =='
Lame. =='

So what else, Daftar Sekarang! LOL ;D

You can actually register with your Facebook account. So practically, everything in Mukabuku can be related with Facebook. Even your friends from Facebook can be invited to experience our Malaysian born social networking site which i wudn't sure how long it will last.

So thats it. :)

Lets just hope this lameness will get huge respond from fellow Malaysians. Who knows what this small start can do, right? :) Perhaps one day everyone will take part in Mukabuku and everything will be back to our MySpace era again. *winkwink* ;D

But seriously, MUKABUKU? LMAO.

Saya suka! ♥

2010-04-01T01:15:00.005+08:00

Said no more pink.

But me and pink, we are just inseparable. :)

♥

HEE SILA GELI SEKARANG. ;p